I'm Sorry

I don't know where to begin.
I'm sorry for everything I'm struggling with  within myself,
I'm sorry I hurt you like I did.
I'm sorry I didn't wanna admit this was the end.
I didn't wanna admit this fight I couldn't win.
Cause I remember the love we had when our story began. 
Now I hate what we are becoming,
This pain is so numbing.
and it's all because of what I always do.
I'm sorry I'm so hurt and im confusing
I'm sorry you gave me your heart that I kept abusing
Just Like your trust I guess this pain is a must
As I Miss memories like the day I met your dog Gus,
Face down running circles in the snow.
I love you more than you will ever know,
It's why it's so hard for me to let go,
It's why I'm hurting more than I will ever show.
And it's all because I don't know how to let go.

Just look in my heart and you will see your name engraved just like the rock in saint George.
And I'm just rhyming this line cause you said I couldn't rhyme with orange.

I'm sorry I became our main issue as You tried to fix all our issues
But I just ignored you rather than listen to you.
Because I didn't think we would ever be through.
But Now I lost you and I don't know what to really do.
I miss how you made me feel like bliss.
And your presence I miss.

I was your fish, now I'm just someone you want  to diss
And keep growing this distant, Than I get persistent
Making this into a mess, becoming a memory you rather not address.

Now I doubt I'm someone you will ever miss..
As you're a memory I'll always miss.
I bought you a ring cause I wanted to make you my mrs.
I thought this was the real thing, but now I see I didn't mean a thing.

But we sure did have a lot of fun. Sleeping in parks under the sun.
I really thought you was the one,
maybe you were but now I'll never know because of what I done.
I'm sorry your heart I can never win.
I'm sorry Your love I can no longer chase when you run.
I'm sorry that we can't even talk because you're done.
Now I feel so dumb cause I lost you for everything that I done
I'm sorry I'm the reason our hearts turned numb.
I wish I could undo the damage that I done.

I'm sorry you won't believe me when you listen to me.
I really wanted to be with you for an eternity.
But instead I gotta live with this for a eternity

I'm Sorry I made you condemn me like you never loved me.
I'm sorry I pushed you away till you
Finally left me.
I'm sorry I blamed you when it was always me.

Do you Blame me? I don't blame ya if you do.
Just know I'm sorry for everything I put you through.
I'm sorry I'm the reason our Love faded and this hatred was created and all we feel now is devastated.
Cause all I know how to do is keep things escalated.

I'm sorry your now afraid to even speak my name,
I'm sorry things between us will never feel the same.
And this distance between us will forever remain.
I'm sorry I wish I could get you up outta my brain.
I'm sorry I turned our happy memories into memories of pain.
I'm sorry being with me always drove you insane.

You were that gold in my eye, the best thing that walked out of my life
And I'm sorry that I was the worst thing that walked  into yours.
I'm sorry our love wasn't enough when things got really rough.
Your heart is only so tough, you can only take so much.

I'm sorry that a picture of you and me is a picture of you and an ex
And I'm sorry that I made you feel you was only good for sex.
You deserved nothing but my best but I gave you everything less.
I'm sorry I lost you for good this time Cause you are one of a kind, someone I wanted to be with for all of time.
But instead I lost you for the last time in no time.

knowing this time there's no next time.
I'm just a memory that will be replaced by another guy.
And I'm not gonna lie that hurts me deep inside
Cause When things got tough, you're the one who stayed around. 
When I had no car in the winter, riding a bike to town
Just to work just to pay for a car that you got.
I never told you but that really meant alot.
You were the best friend that I never got.
And I missed my shot and I lost every chance that I got.

There's no more for me to get,
I'm sorry I'm stuck in memories I can't forget,
Stuck in the memories you rather forget.
Like the nights you rested your head on my chest, it was the best.
Or that feeling we felt Every Time we kissed,
Or how we loved each other even though we were a mess.

Or when we tore down those walls we built around us inside of us.
And gave each other that key of trust to our heart.
Just to let me corrupt that light inside you with something dark.
I'm sorry all that  I did was make your heart bust thinking I can find love inside of lust.
That's my biggest mistake and it sucks.
Cause I remember the nights you was there when no one else was around,
but my past weighed us down and over time you vanished without a sound.

I'm falling apart walking lost through the dark in this place,
looking for anything that I can use to take your place and fill a hole up inside my chest where my heart once used to rest.
You are an angel from up above
And I'm sorry how I wish you were here to hug.

I'm sorry I'm having a hard time holding it together,
I honestly thought we'd be for together forever
but we changed quicker than the weather.
And our love began to wither.

Since then I feel stuck in hell everyday
I'm lost and I can't seem to find my way back to myself
I'm sorry for how I dealt with you and myself.
I'm fighting things inside myself with no help.

I made so many empty promises just to break.
so many lies that I lied, so many tears I made you cry,
I'm sorry I'm the reason our love had to die,
And I'm sorry we didn't even get to tell our unborn Baby goodbye.
I'm trying my best to move along but i'm just a guy,
And I think I just felt my heart die. It's why I'm alone when I cry.
And I'm struggling to survive
Struggling just to get by.
But when I was with you I felt so alive.
I felt like I could honestly fly.
But  your gone and now I'm falling,
I try to talk but you screen my calls when I'm calling

I'm sorry I can't seem to accept that my heart got dissected
I'm sorry this is hard for me to accept.
I wish I could kill this side like you and just forget it.
thinking somehow I can fix it just to break it.
And Honestly I hate it.

I must have something wrong inside and I can't see it.
I'm sorry i wish you would just sit down and talk to me
But it's to the point neither of us will see the others point.

And I'm sorry the more that we talk the more you hate me.
You were the only one who seem to care for me, Who was there for me,
when everyone deserted me, now you can't even stomach me,
let alone look at me, And it's all  because of me
And it's what's killing me,

So I'm sorry I'm the reason your love had to leave.
I'm sorry the feelings we had are no longer there
And this sin we both now have to bear.
Pretending deep down like neither of us care.
But it hurts because we remember all the memories that we shared and all the feelings that were there and all the times how we were there.

Remembering us Singing to Satan
"You can't touch this"
Just know I'm sorry I'm the one who destroyed all of this.
I'm sorry that I made you feel like you were worthless.
When we both know you're something priceless.
I'm sorry that I created this empty void inside us we rather avoid.
It sucks cause we know this is all true.
If I was you I would hate me too.

I'm sorry your fish got defeated By a piranha that keeps on eating.
It's why your heart got so mistreated,
It's why that spark in our heart finally faded,
regardless of all the beautiful memories that we created.
Not gonna lie I really thought our love was fated.
But the only thing that I see was fated was me being someone that we both hated.