All We Know

No Chemistry

'Hey, can I have your chemistry notebook', I looked up from my desk and saw a girl leaning in with her hands out. I didn't really want to give it to her because seriously as much as I had figured I was the only kid in this class actually writing down notes and stuff so why should I let it go to this random girl. 
'This book?', I showed it by holding it up for a second. 
'Yes that book', she took it from my hands. Well isn't that just fantastic, 'I'll return it later don't worry about it', she remarked before she scurried back to her desk. I didn't even know this girl and she had the audacity to just take my book and rush away huh?

She looked very unassuming, shabbily worn clothes with messy short hair and a height that would be comfortable to rest an arm on. Her face however was covered with the little bangs that she had done, not really revealing the second eye. Her glasses left too much to the imagination anyway. 

I didn't like it but then I couldn't just go back and take it so I just sat there and focused on my textbook instead of getting pissed about it. It was after all a new school and I had to make friends somehow so this might be it I guess. 

It was a new year and I wanted it to be different this time, I wanted to be focused, careful and most importantly happy. I hadn't been able to make many friends yet, so I just walked alone through the corridors of GreenWood Academy. You know those people who are unhappy without any particular reason, like people who have supporting families, loving friends and intellect yet are always dead on the inside. People who were once determined in life to achieve greatness, brimming with a self confidence that was rare and admirable but were now nothing but just husks purporting to inhale and exhale like others? I still felt like that. There wasn't any particular reason as I said previously. It's just that sadness really suited me, or still does. I wore it like a jock wears a letterman, I confined myself in it as to not blemish my self by coming in the forefront and actually enjoying life.

As I paced along the hallways and waved to some of the other students I had met during my interview at GreenWood, I realised how alone I was despite the fact that I didn't need to be. Everyone else was in a group or at least a two, but here I stood.

"What are you doing?", I heard a voice.
"huh?", I asked.
I looked behind me and it was a girl, I didn't recognise her from anywhere so I certainly didn't know her.
She was a little short too, around the same height, with short hair but not taped upon itself, instead left hanging. Kinda cute. Her face was really plain though, reminiscent of the next door girl.

"Are you like...Gloating?", She asked.
"Ummm... No?", I stuttered a little.
"Okay soft boy, give some space maybe", she said and walked right past me. She looked behind though and she looked more irritated rather than anything else. Like somehow my Gloating had exhausted her. It was like she felt angered by people who were sad. Or so it seemed.

After classes, I took the numbers of some of the guys in my class in case I needed help with some stuff. It all didn't seem as easy as I had hoped earlier. I thanked them and then looked around for the girl that took my chemistry notebook.

I couldn't find her.
"Whatever", I walked out from the class and then stumbled around the crowd until I found a paced space that didn't force me to hurry. I looked around again and saw how crowded it was, literally so many students.
"We need a new Pandemic huh", A deep voice rang behind me.
I turned a little, it was Jim. He was from my class too.
"You want to walk together?", He asked. I laughed a little in my head, who says that?
"What?", I asked.
"No, I'm not repeating that.", He said.
I frowned a little.
"You want... company?", He repeated.
I nodded.
"What? Don't you feel lonely?", He asked.
"Honestly, not that much but enough I guess", I sighed a little.
"You're a weird little bigger aren't ya? I noticed you were scribbling answers to all of the questions the professor was asking during English Lit", he said.
"Oh that's.. that's not weird and stalky at all", I said.
"Well maybe you should answer, Mr Brown would appreciate it.", He remarked.
"I'll pass on the offer for now but I'll certainly think about it.", I said.
"You do know me right?", He suddenly asked.
"....yeah..?", I replied with uncertainty.
"It's alright, I'm Jim, James, Jimmy, whatever sails your boat honestly, just don't stretch it to Jimothy okay?", He joked.
"Yeah yeah.", I replied.
"Well I gotta go then, my group's over there", he pointed at a group of 3 guys who all looked like massive nerds. He patted me and left. 'He seems nice', A voice in my head said.
'Yeah, everyone does in the beginning', another voice in my head responded.

I continued down till I reached near the busses, there was still a lot of Hustle bustle of students, a lot of noise but the best thing about it was that it felt like life, people are so alive here. I searched inside my jacket's pocket and picked out my pocket watch. Only a couple minutes for my bus to arrive.
I was waiting quietly looking around when I saw her again.

That girl who stole my Chemistry notebook. She too was with a group of people. I wanted to go and ask her to give it back so I wouldn't have to interact with her again tomorrow. I didn't do that however and instead quietly sat down in the seat of my bus.

Today didn't feel like it was it.