So here I am laying in bed at 2 a.m writing this. I'm not really sure why I just need to let it out. The same thing keeps happening all the time. I'm with my best friends, hanging out, laughing, having fun and then I realize that I'm forcing myself to laugh. I'm forcing myself to have a good time. It takes so much effort to smile that it actually hurts me. I've lost interest in things that I used to love like singing and dancing and playing the piano. I'm scared of meeting new people and I'm scared of the future. I don't know what I'm experiencing but I feel like I have no emotions. If anyone else has felt this way feel free to comment.
