like the waves of the ocean

"why?"

'why did you do that'
'why I know you knew about it'
'why-why why why why'

hey it's me again this time its I guess it's not as hard for me to write it expense my feelings now so I guess I dont know I'm just sad I guess but I'm not always sad I can get a feeling of happiness it's just not the same as it used to be I know I sound like every teenager right now but not all teenagers go to counseling and therapy and have to take anti- depressants and so many fucking pills a day I know I'm not so sad I have to be on anti depressants but my mom thinks its the best and i know she wants me to get better but i dont yea i guess this is the stereotype or a teenager so emotional and so depressed but they use it was the boy who cryed woulf they dont know how it feels and I doubt they ever will

"hey move it ya fuckin fag" "your so worthless" "no wonder your dad left you" "your sutch a dipshit" "no one loves you" "you are a mistake"

that's what I have to deal with every day yea it's not as bad as some people's story's but I can deal with it but it hurts me sometimes and my mom to I just dont want to hurt my mom shes to fragile it's just that she wont get it, nobody does

I just dont want to be here I mean I wish I was invisible sometimes just so no one can see me or here me even though nobody will care I'm just another person nothing different about me or specal I man I would want my presents to be here just not me

but there is a way that helps me cutting I know everyone is just like 'what how does that help you?' and it helps me because I know there a way out if I wanted anyway my normal day is wake up, go to school, get to work, and come back home, unless I want to leave I never really stay at my house I usually just walk to clear my mind

(guys this is like one I really want to write idk I just kinda like this plot and ya can tell me if yall want me to write more of this one beacuse I already said this but I really like it and if any of you are ever felling this way you can dm me on here or my Twitter @ GSunflower28 yea that's my username for like everything and heres one

800-273-8255

it's not my # it's a suicide hotline thing

if yall have anymore feel free to comment them

btw this character is louis I'll try to get little pictures of something on the top idk I'll try my best