The man that i am longing for almost a decade is now standing and currently waiting for her bride to walk down the aisle.
Alam kong ako ang laman ng puso mo, pero bakit hindi ako ang iniharap mo sa altar?
As long as i know that you love me, i'll fight for you.
Malalim na pag hinga ang ginawa ko bago simulan ang plano, kahapon ko pa inasikaso ito. Valentine, she supposed to sing for this wedding but i paid her double to give that job on me. Binulungan ko ang pianist at kitang kita ang pagtataka sa mukha nito.
Nagsimula na itong tumipansa piano. Mahigpit ng pagkakahawa ko sa mic, pumikit ako ng mariin bago simulan ang pag kanta
'I am not the kind of girl
Who should be rudely bargin' in on a white veil occasion'
Im singing speak now by Taylor Swift
Hindi ko pinansin ng mg adahil malamang ay lahat sila ay naka pokus sa seremonya, pero mamaya ay mapapansin at mapapansin niyo rin ako.
'But you are not the kind of boy
Who should be marryin' the wrong girl'
Yes, i am going to ruin this wedding. Some of them turn their heads on me...
okay, its starting
'Fond gestures are exchanged
And the organ starts to play
A song that sounds like a death march'
This time mismong groom na si Ivan na ang napatingin sa gawi ko, He look at me in disbelief.
And I am hiding in the curtains
It seems I was uninvited by your lovely bride-to-be
And this time my cousin who is the bride of this ceremony glared at me as if she's trying to communicate to me trough her eyes that was screaming 'what are you doing'
Wht am i doing? claiming the person the was mine in the first place.
Cause Sophie, we both know na kaya lang naman napunta si Ivan sayo ay dahil sa naalala niya ako sayo. Pinahiram ko lang saliya ng pansamantagal and now you're taking advantage of my absence in his life
She floats down the aisle like a pageant queen
But I know you wish it was me
You wish it was me, don't you?
This time i walk towards the bride i block her view for Ivan to see me.
Ako naman talaga diba?
Don't say yes, run away now
I'll meet you when you're out
Of the church at the back door
Don't wait or say a single vow
Your time is running out
And they said, "speak now"
This time everyone freak out, the parents of both party starts to be intrigued by my presence.
I hear the preacher say
"Speak now or forever hold your peace"
There's a silence, there's my last chance
I stand up with shaking hands
All eyes on me
Horrified looks from everyone in the room
But I'm only lookin' at you
I stopped.
Cause Ivan walk toward my direction and gently grabbed the mic in my hands.
He cleared his throat before speaking. " Im really sorry to waste everyone's effort to attend this ceremony but i am not going to do this anymore" he says while looking straight directly to my eyes.
Milyon milyong mga paru paro ang nga wala s abuong sistema ko, kanina ay sobrang lakas ng loob ko pero ngayon kung kailan tapos na ay saka lang ako nakaramdam ng kaba at pangihihina.
Lumuha ako sa narinig.
Akala ko'y mawawala ka na sakin.
Akala ko tapos na tayo.
Akala ko wala na talaga.
But you proved to me that you'll do anything for me and im so thankful na ginawa ko to.
Ginamit ko ang natitira kong lakas para hatakin ang kamay niya, hinila ko siya palakas ng simbahan. We're both smiling.
"Thank you Liana, i nearly dug my own grave. Im really glad that you're there" wika nito habang tumatakbo kami.
Tapos na. Pero akala ko lang pala yon.
We both unconsiously stopped after hearing those words from Sophie.
"GODDAMNIT IVAN, YOU CAN'T JUST LEAVE ME HERE! IM CARRYING YOUR CHILD!" Umiiyak at ngumangawang sigaw nito na rinig na rinig ng lahat ng tao sa simbahan.
Ang mga salitang paulit ulit na ng e-echo sa utak ko.
Ivan looked at me. So hindi mo rin alam na may nabuo and wait may nangyari na sa inyo?
He kneeled asking for my forgiveness. "Hindi ko alam, im sorry. Liana please ayoko dito, take me with you. We'll be together. Liana please" pag mamakaawa pa nito.
I also kneeled, i wiped his tears and smile.
Mahal kita, and as long as mahal mo ko ipaglalaban kita. Pero ibang usapan na dahil may batang involve may bagong buhay na involve i don't want to ruin that child's life. Ayokong ipagkait sakanya ang buong pamilya na kailangan at magpapasaya sa kanya.
Mahal kita Ivan, mahal na mahal.
I now belive that 'letting go is also a form of love' siguro gantong klaseng pagmamahal ang maibibigay ko sayo.
I smiled at him
"You look so gloomy, this is your day. Smile" usal ko.
"Liana"
"Ivan, you once experience a broken family and it tore you apart, haha hindi ba dun pa nga tayo nag simula? You're miserable because of you're family problem then pinatino kita" panandalian akong tumigil.
Mesmerizing those days
"You once exprience a broken family, kaya ayokong ipaparanas mo iyon sa magiging anak mo. You'll learn to love Sophie in time, and Ivan don't mind me. You know me, i can handle myself too well" nakangiting sabi ko dito.
Ito na ang huling bagay na pwede kong gawin para sayo.
He's looking dowm and obviously holding his tears back.
Itinayo ko siya at ibinalik sa kung saan siya dapat. I kissed him, a smack.
Huli na to.
This is my last goodbye.
Siguro nga hanggang dito nalang nag istoryang to, kailangan ko ng isara ang librong to.
Dahil sa book two ng buhay mo, wala na ang character ko.
