"What?" "You know you can't lie to me, right?" Ben felt his mouth begin to dry. His eyes were locked with Dan's and he silently begged they gave nothing away. "I can hear your heartbeat. Every drop of blood being pumped round your body I can hear ringing in my eardrums. Don't sit so close next time you try to lie to me." --- [Book 1] Stricken with paranoia, Ben's dreams have left him terrified and delusional. He's trapped inside his mind, afraid of his own friends, fighting against fear itself. And absolutely determined that the boy in the class above is madly in love with him. [Warnings: Explicit content, suicidal thoughts, self-harm, emotional abuse]