I was saved by a dragon. I know that sounds weird but it happened at Helgen. I traveled to whiterun to warn the jarl. Anyway I went to kill this dragon and apparently I have the 'way of the voice' or the 'thunm' I am a nord and I still don't know what that means, but I got told to go to the 'greybeards' and they would help me. So I started walking up the 50000 steps to high horothgar.