This is a reprise of call be by your name from Elio's pov. The things inside his head that he was too scared to admit. Kind of like how we hold so much of ourselves, shrink ourselves for the fear that we might overwhelm the person we love by being our truest self. What we may not realize is that person is all ready to accept us for who we are. I always felt Elio was giving in all too much of himself in the moment but also holding back so much at the same time. I tried to imagine how he felt and the things he thought of that he was too afraid to confess and wrote them in this book. Also I tried to imagine the story from Oliver's pov tried my best to describe them in words.