ataraxia : a state of freedom from emotional disturbance and anxiety; tranquility Lukas Peterson viewed himself a shadow in comparison to her older sister. Olivia Peterson is the head of the cheerleading squad at school, she had blonde-hair and the clearest green eyes that made the boys swoon, and most importantly, unlike Lukas, she didn't feel the guilt of indirectly causing her best friend's suicide. Olivia was loved. Lukas was alone. Olivia had her own car. Lukas sat in the passenger seat. Olivia had boys kneeling in front of her. Lukas wasn't even sure he was straight. When Alec Walker, the quarterback and notorious playboy of Westfield High School, comes crashing into both of their lives, Lukas' already guilt-driven, complicated life crumbles. He has no chance against his perfect, older sister. So, why is Alec paying attention to him? *** trigger warning: contains themes of self-harm and suicide. read at your own risk