I spent 4 years of high school obsessing over a guy who never saw me the way I saw him. Never focusing on school because I was focused on the way I looked around him. It was the worst four years of my life when it was supposed to be the best. It made me apply to college late and have to wait till the last second to decide. I was so focused on him that my grades were always slipping. I got into my dream school but didn't get into the school closest to my home. Now having to go somewhere even smaller for a year and then transfer. Four years and he was gone before graduation. This is the story of my first year of the hell I went through. Started July 20, 2022