Brendon Urie needed another member for his upcoming pop-punk band panic! at the disco, and Ryan Ross just happened to be a great guitarist. ...and he's really cute. But there's way more to him than that. tw // swearing, possible smut, abuse, trauma, self-harm, suicide, usage of the f-slur <brendons pov, rare pov switches> ||RENAMED BECAUSE IT WAS TOO SIMILAR TO ANOTHER FIC|| Each chapter is 950-1000 words long. I know it's short, but it's easy to write and makes lots of chapters. :)