a one shot collection of charlie's firsts and lasts, comparing his experiences with ben and nick. general tw! anxiety, panic attacks, assualt, ocd, major character death(s), eating disorder, and self harm will all be discussed at various points in this book!! chapter specific tw will be given at the top of all that apply :) take care of yourself, please <3 ideally, each part will be split into four sections. you won't have to read all of them to understand them but they all will go together :) also! canon divergence some, mostly regarding nick and charlie's first kiss. gonna be different from both the books and show :)