I feel like I never see what I want, like the things I want don't exist. So I will just hafe to make them myself. I have doubt in myself that it will live up to my own high expectations. I will push myself to do better for the little things I have left in my life to live for. When there is nothing left I will makey own light to guide myself, and hopefully others along the way. This is a journey I am terrified to make, but willing to sacrifice myself for those who may listen. For those who may pay attention to me, a child, lost and alone, who doesn't know who they are, what they want, or what is going on. I am willing to put myself on the line for those who can't or are to scarred to speak up to be heard by others. I will speak my truth and nothing else. I am here for those who wish to listen. I will strive for the near impossible to achieve what I want in my life as I learn who I am and what I want from what is to come in this crazy thing we call life. I will fight to be who I want to be and will never give up until my last final breath.