"All I wanted was a perfect life, a perfect family. Is that too much to ask? Everyday I would ask myself, why my parents? Why did their lives have to be taken at such a young age? It doesn't make any sense for one person to just take their lives in front of my eyes. I still don't forgive him after that traumatizing incident that had burned through my head I hated my life since then. All that I've been going through in my life was pain and hell. My life has been a living hell ever since my 16th birthday. This incident was only 2 years ago, but I am still hurting due to the fact that I think about it everyday I still reminisce, I still hallucinate, and I still have pain I my heart. I've tried being strong for my parents, but I just gave up. I gave up on everything. I gave up on my health, I gave up on my self-esteem, and I gave up on my mentality. I wish I could just go back to the times where I was with my parents. I was happy. I actually cared about my life. I actually had my shit together. But now, everything just fell apart."