𝘽𝙖𝙨𝙚𝙙 𝙤𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙣𝙤𝙝 𝙖𝙡𝙚𝙜𝙧𝙖 𝙨𝙤𝙣𝙜 𝙄 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙙. "again and again a man would tell me about early childhood feelings of emotional exuberance, of unrepressed joy,and then a rupture happened somehow the test of manhood, men told me, was the willingness to accept this loss." bell hooks, the will to change. 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝟑 𝐒𝐍𝐈𝐏𝐏𝐄𝐓 : She led me to her room sitting me down slowly before sitting on my lap . " E , why do you hide your feelings so much ? , your full of secrets ." She questioned catching me off guard . " I don't do that all that feeling stuff." I said reminiscent . "I've been hearing things about your street life and your life in ny, why didn't you tell me instead of letting others tell me ." She said calmly making my smile fade away as I began frowning at the thought of all I had done . I sat there in deep thought , rubbing her back ,leaving her without an answer before I responded saying " I grew up being taught that mental health issues were all made up and not manly ."