Dear Parker, I cant hide them anymore. My friends know. And I swear to god that I love you but I'm so tired of being hurt. I know you drink to numb the pain but do you remember when our love was all that was needed to make you forget there even was pain? I've began to think of you like roller-coaster; you go up and down and you terrify me, but you also give me this rush, and when the ride comes to an end I realize how much I loved it... But I can only ride the roller coaster so many times until I realize that it's making my head hurt... And maybe I should just get off this roller coaster if it hurts me so much. But for good this time...