"Am I alive or dead? That is the question I ask myself in the eyes of others, they refuse to notice me as a human being.... The only time they notice me is when they are hurting me.....I guess I deserve this pain.... But, I want to ask, why? Why do I deserve it? Oh right.....I'm a fuck up, I wasn't supposed to plague this world with my existence, I blame my parents for that, that is why they left me......they knew that I was a plague from day one....they went on a 'business trip' and never came home again..... They paid the bills remotely and never looked at me ever again.....they never asked anyone to see if I was okay......oh well..... Pain is pain.......pain like that of which I inflict upon myself daily......the marks are just ways that I remind myself that I am a fuck up.....people who notice the scars don't ask and those that don't never will....."
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