This is 2.48 am when I am writing this! Since yesterday evening I am having terrible anxiety attack! It does feel like I'll have a heart failure! Though I am feeling uneven heart beat count & My BP is already very high!
I am not feeling like sharing anything to anyone, that's why I want it to write it down over here! Where no one knows me, no one will judge me, no one will mock about my problems which normal ppl doesn't face ever in their life!
Specially fandom ppl, I do have shared my problems with some of my ex friends from KYY fandom; but they have joked About it now! Made a gossiping issue to the ppl whom I don't even know! & this is why I won't share my problems with anyone; that incident has made me like this that I would choose to die rather than sharing my problems with anyone!
Coz no one out here will understand it & they will be like ppl doesn't have these sort of issues of issues!
Those ppl from the fd has made my life hell; giving me immense mental torture without any reason! I hadn't had any fight with them but you know what they did? They have made a gossip about my personal life to their friends! They even said that my life is a story of ITV fiction show; Ekta should get the concept out of it!
Actually they really didn't believe me what I have said to them; that's the main problem!
But right now I am feeling extremely exhausted that I am having breathing issue; it's like someone is sitting on my chest! Do u really know how does anxiety attacks feel like? There I shared with u!
Thankfully no one is gonna read it & I can rant about my feelings!
I don't know what to do; & I really don't know what is coming on my path & how would I handle it!
I just hope Allah makes me stronger enough to deal with it!
