Hi! Well, how do I start this? Uh, if your watching this, I'm probably... Uh, never mind... Hi Sam!
Of course, this video if for you, dummy. So I'm here to ask if you have already improved your walk.
You can call this my farewell video. Uh, I don't know how it would sound less... painful for you. Hey, if ever your crying right now, stop it or you won't be able to focus on what I'm about to say. So... Okay...
I'm sorry I pushed you away a lot of times when all you wanted was to save me. I didn't really want to push you away and hurt you but, I was afraid that being with me would be even more painful for you because up until now, the death of my mom still lives inside. The guilt from it. I have... or had... been living my life with nothing but pain. I was in the darkness for a long time. A lot of times, I compared myself to you. Actually I envied you. I wanted to have everything you had. I have always thought that you're so lucky beacuse you have everything. That's why I was mad at you.
I was such a lonely kid. I had been suffering for so many years now until... Until that day. You were so persistent that I had to let you in, but you know what? You made me so happy. You made me explore so many things. You helped me heal. You never left my side. You were there for me when no one else was. You became my mother figure and I couldn't thank you enough for that.
I will treasure every moment with you, so if you're still blaming yourself for what happened, please know that you did enough. You were more than enough. At some point, I felt like I wanted to get through it. You made me stronger, but there were still many times when I will break down no matter how happy I was that day, but it wasn't beacuse of you. Do not blame yourself. Do not live like me. That feeling is the feeling I had to bear for so many years.
Sam, I already told you this, but you will become a great model someday. Please, live for yourself this time. Choose yourself, kasi alam kong ubos na ubos ka na. Do the things you want to be happy, genuinely happy.
Of course you need to work on your walk, but as your former photographer, I know expert ka na when it comes to shoots. I'm saying this now, and I will never get tired of repeating this up there, in the sky.
I am... so proud of you.
Don't worry about me anymore, because now I am at peace, I am now a star and I will shine bright for you. Look up when you miss me and I will look down when I miss you.
I love you, Ate.
Some changed/added lines for revision of AOTD for publishing:
اوووه! هذه الصورة لا تتبع إرشادات المحتوى الخاصة بنا. لمتابعة النشر، يرجى إزالتها أو تحميل صورة أخرى.
اوووه! هذه الصورة لا تتبع إرشادات المحتوى الخاصة بنا. لمتابعة النشر، يرجى إزالتها أو تحميل صورة أخرى.
