drabbles

Dear Meg, (chapter)

ive thought about making a second book focusing more on the background characters, more specifically meg, but i dont think ill actually do it. here's the beginning chapter anyway:

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*Meg's POV*

It's been a couple months since the last major incident. I could tell those two idiots were trying to hide it, but they still made it so obvious. They're lucky Todd is pretty dense.

My work here looks like its done.

I had been so keen on living for laughs and fun, and, well, that's what I'd been doing. But I realized maybe I was interfering with peoples' lives too much.

I continued to sit with Andrew and his group. I realized I didn't really know anyone at this school besides them, and I thought I had so many friends.

It's been fun with them. They're all so carefree.

But there's something on my conscience that's been nagging me, and I just can't tell what.

Through the first month or so when I met Justin, I may of not been focusing on myself, but I was still very selfish.

But since then I've been working hard to be even just a little bit nicer, and my conscience has cleared a little bit.

But not all the way.

I can't tell what it is, but it feels like something's wrong with the force of nature whenever I'm present. I know no one else feels that way, but the thought drags with me whenever I walk into a room.

"Heeeey, yoooooo, Meg? Megan Bailey! Come back to Earth." I snapped out of my thoughts to see Justin waving his hand in my face.

"Huh? What is it?"

"You've just been sat there staring all lunch period." Justin answered.

"Yeah! At least eat your food. Would be a big waste of a lunch period," Beth mentioned.

"Oh sorry I didn't notice. I don't know what's gotten into me lately," I said.

"Ay, y'know what? Whatever it is, you'll figure it out and get through it," Andy encouraged me.

"Thanks, Ann." I smiled a little bit before I started stuffing my face.

I'm engaged in the conversation now. I'm listening to whatever gossip Crystal's been in or how Airen has to sweep the cafeteria every Thursday. Once, I look over and see Justin and Andrew calling each other pet names.

"Well you're dog's name is Abbie!" Justin said.

"The only pets you own are on Hypixel Skyblock!" Andy rebutted.

"Woah, too deep, man. Too deep," Justin said in a hurt voice.

"Aw I'm sorry, Justin. I can make it up to you!" Andy stated in a caring voice.

"Really?? Would you give me a pity kiss??" Justin uttered.

"No, definitely not. I was being sarcastic. I can't have a boyfriend who gets offended about their animals in a block game like they're Neopets!" Andy replied back with a smirk on his face.

Justin sighed, "Darn, I thought that would work."

"I can't believe you're clingier than Tony."

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They talked on and on and I was listening to it all.

I want something like they've got. I want something tangible.

Who am I kidding? All the guys that are into me have horrible personalities.

I wish there was something other than a man, someone who understood me better and saw our relationship as something real. Someone whose brain is built for things different from men.

holy cow im describing a woman

wait im a woman

wait a second

hang on

I must've been staring long and hard because I heard Beth say, "You okay over there Meg? I can see the wheels turning in your head."

"Oh uh, yeah I'm fine! But the wheels, uh, I think they've stopped."