KEEP US SECRET

Eleven

To find the room empty

I grabbed my phone and texted and called her but there was no answer

I checked life 360 and she was at some lake near by

I grabbed my jacket subs it was chilly

I ran back down and walked towards the lake till I saw her

" oh my god don't scare me like that"

I told her

She didn't say anything

" bils"

I asked sitting by her on the dock

" I'm sorry"

She said playing with her hands

" for what"

I asked

" you have to go through so much hate and stuff already for just knowing me.....i feel bad"

She said

" Billie"

I started

" no y/n it's the truth"

She said getting up and walking away

I grabbed her arm making her turn around

She looked down

" hey let's talk this out"

I told her wanting to know what happened

" Y/n I think we should break up"

She said

I let go of her hand and my face dropped

" oh"

I said as my heart broke

" you don't mean that"

I told her slightly laughing to try and make myself believe it wasn't real

" no y/n I'm serious"

Billie said

"Wow umm ok then"

I said feeling stupid

We both stood there as the wind blew

Neither of us talked

" I'm just gonna go"

I told her my voice cracking as I turned around and just walked back towards the hotel

Never in a million years would I have thought that would happen

After a year of us keeping everything secret

I walked and saw Claudia and Finneas chilling out by the stage still

" did you find Billie"

Finneas asked worriedly

" umm yeah she's uhh over there by the dock"

I said sniffing

" what's wrong"

Claudia asked

" Billie umm Billie broke up with me"

I told them as they gasped

" it's fine really it's my fault"

I said walking away

How could I have thought Billie would like me

Maybe I was too busy or not doing enough

I don't know

I packed my bag and moved to stay with Claudia and Finneas would stay with Billie

I passed Billie in the hallway but said nothing

I walked to Claudia and set my stuff in her room

She hugged me as I let everything out

" fuck this hurts worse then anything I've ever felt before"

I cried into her chest

" I know angel I know"

She said

" I just wanna go home"

I told her

" I know I'll see if we can leave tomorrow"

She said

Billies pov

I didn't wanna break up with y/n but I felt like I had to

She doesn't deserve her own teammates hating on her

It hurt me to know that's how they treated her

" Billie what happened"

Finneas asked

" me and y/n broke up"

I said simply as I wrote song lyrics in my notebook

Wait a minute, let me finish
I know you don't care
But can you listen?
I came committed, guess I overdid it
Wore my heart out on a chain
Around my neck, but now it's missing, hmm

I was trying to write the song from how y/n probably is feeling or from her perspective

I hummed a tune and recorded it on my phone

" listen Billie I'm sorry for how I acted I love you ok I just I was shocked and I acted out but when I saw you with y/n I knew you were actually happy"

He said

" we'll that's over now because I was ruining her life"

I mumbled

" Billie"

Finneas started

" let's just talk tomorrow"

I said turning off the lamp and laying down

I stared at the ceiling feeling lonely but it's my fault

It had to be done