Smoke // castano

𝗽𝗮𝗴𝗲 𝟯𝟵.

𝗽𝗮𝗴𝗲 𝟯𝟵: 𝗰𝗮𝗿 𝗿𝗶𝗱𝗲𝘀
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riding in a car with mattia polibio was awfully uncomfortable when he wouldn't even say a word to me. all he said was "what the hell" when i first stepped into the car, but than he just started driving.

"mattia" i kept saying but all he did was glance over at me and grin,,

it wasn't a smirk grin, just a holding anger back grin. and it really got quite annoying on the tenth time.

"MATTIA" i tried raising my voice, but still no answer "babe?" i don't know i just tired to say something that might make him respond

"gosh y/n, i'm trying to drive" he groaned giving me a pathetic smile

"why you gotta be such a dick" i muttered facing the window

"why do you have to date suck jackass boys"

"is that including you?" i replied

"nope, it's not like i'm bout to hit you, i'm just mad" he smiled thinking that's something to feel accomplished of

"SUCH high standards" i mocked his tone

he didn't even respond, but within the next few minutes we pulled into school.

i was so pissed off at the moment, the second he stopped the car i opened the door and started to get out;

"did he kiss you?" he faintly asked

"what?" i say back down and closed the door

"i said did he kiss you" he replied

i mean he just kissed me on my forehead, so no?

"uhm wha...what do you mean" fucking dumbass

"did he do this to you"

it was very confusing for me so i just sat there, but he didn't. he moved in closer and closer until i could feel his breathe on my face.

"mattia.. n.." i tried to get out but he stopped me

he kissed me. it wasn't anything special but it still happened. it's not like last night where i enjoyed it, it felt like i was being forced.

it felt cold. it felt harsh. it felt forced. and i knew i didn't want to be here. but something inside me told me to stay. maybe it was because this is all i'm used to? or maybe it was because he's all i have.

he placed his hand behind my head, really going full force. it was like he craved me, like he needed me. and i needed to feel. so of course i did whatever i needed to do.

i let him take control.

somehow we ended up in the back seat with him hovering over me. i had never seen this side of mattia. but i also knew he had this in him.

"if you don't want to we don't have to. i mean we could go to school, do this, maybe i could take you to the mall?" he offered

"keep going" i groaned trying to get my mind off of mariano

because yes, he never left my mind from the minute i left school yesterday afternoon.

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"wait, hold up" he stopped me and adjusted my shirt "there you go"

"thanks" i smiled, not out of happiness

"c'mon we can't miss second period" h

as i took my first step out of the car my leg kinda gave out;

"fuck" i groaned leaning onto the car

"shit, shit, shit, y/n you okay?" he ran over to me

"yeah just a little soar" i chuckled

"what can i say" he grinned

"calm you ego" i said before getting up again

i could walk fine besides a little limp, but no one would notice right?

"goodmorning" mattia said to the office lady

"your late" she scoffed

"yes well uhm, see my best friend had a fight with her boyfriend yesterday and she took it kinda ruff" he attempted to say

"aah yes, and i suppose you healed her mr. polibio?"

"tried my best" he said taking my hand

"get to class"

i looked aat the clock and turns out theres still five minutes before second period so we didn't bother going to class. i went to my locker, mattia following, and i really wish he didn't.

"holy fuck" his eyes opened really wide

"what the.." my eyes didn't he same

my locker was filled with roses and a card, and chocolate. i looked over at mattia and could just tell he wasn't enjoying this like i was. i frantically opened the card, ignoring the roses.

"y/n,

              i'm so very sorry for beating up your best friend yesterday. i'm also sorry for treating you like an object. i'm not completely aware, or used to, caring for someone like the way i care for you. this is all new to me, which i'm not saying is an excuse, it's just an explanation.

            but you do mean more to me than you think. and i know you haven't known my quite as long as mattia or the other ass boys, so i don't blame you if you want to stay with them. but no matter what you do, just know that i do care about you more than you do to them.

          and i'm also very sorry if i acted like vinnie and made the situation worse. i wanted to come over yesterday and apologize in person but i figured you went to vinnie's. i talked to cynthia about that situation and i understand if you want to go live in your house.

       she told me about the whole situation, and she told me that she knew about the abusing the whole time. i know he cares for you very very deeply and that he was basically your life support.

   he might of been your first love, but i intend to be your last

                                                        love.

                                                                     marinao"

"girl, tell me what your doing on the other side,
and so, just tell me what you're doing with that
other guy"

"face it, you want it, you crave it, belive it when
i say that you'll know once you taste it"

"what the hell are we? tell me we weren't just
no friends, that dosent much sense no"

"but i'm not hurtin, i'm tense, cause i'll be fine
without you babe"

𝗳𝗿𝗶𝗲𝗻𝗱𝘀: 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝘀𝗲 𝗮𝘁𝗹𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗰