The Arrangement •JK•

Chapter 67

Loosing you

Y/n POV

I gazed at him. He was jealous? "I-I was scared......I'd loose you....to someone else...." he looked away. It warmed my heart to know how much he was afraid of loosing me. But I had no intention of walking away from him. "You won't loose me..." I spoke. "I'll always be here, I'm not leaving, ever." I said. He gave a small smile. I hugged him tightly. "Did you get my peace offering?" I asked, still in his embrace. "I did," I heard him chuckle a bit. "I love you, so so much." He whispered in my ear squeezing me tightly.

"I love you." I pulled away and planted a warm kiss on his lips. He returned the deep kiss, taking my cheeks into his hands. This familiar feeling returned. This feeling of neediness. I wondered what it was and why I was feeling like this. The kiss set my heart into flames. And I absolutely loved it. I feel back amd he hovered over me once more. My hands held his muscular biceps as we kissed deeply. He shoved his tongue into my mouth impatiently.
My heart was thumping so loudly I could almost hear it. This feeling. Was so wonderful. This feeling of love.

A couple of weeks passed, and Jungkook just wouldn't leave me alone. I love the attention, I really do, but he's turned down hanging out with his friends three times now. I want him to have a life outside of marriage. "Go. They're waiting for you." I said pushing him to the doorway. "But, can't we just stay home and cuddle." He asked. It was a really good offer but I had to be strong. "No, go and have fun with your friends." I said. He sighed and soon left the house. Phew, hopefully he doesn't come back until 11pm.

Bailey and I were watching movies all night when I heard a knock at the door. It was Yuna. "Hey Yuna!" I smiled. "Hey! Mind if we hang out, Taheyung is out." She said. "Sure come in, its freezing." I said as she came inside.

We talked for a couple of hours. "Awe, that's cute." She looked at the wedding photo of Jungkook and I. "Oh he got me that for Christmas." I replied. "Awwww, that's so adorable." She cooed. "Look at you, falling for the forbidden stern CEO." She fantasized. "I was forced to marry him." I pointed out. "Well if you weren't would you still marry him?" She asked. I thought about the question for a moment.

"If he asked then I would...." I replied. "I love him.....a lot....." I uttered thinking about him. "He loves you a lot too, he's always babbling about you, Taheyung tells me." She said. I smiled. "He kind of has a different personality now." She said. "What do you mean?" I asked. "Well he's less, gloomy, you know, maybe that's you rubbing off on him." She smiled. I giggled at her theory. "Maybe....." I uttered. "Sooo, did you sleep with him?" I asked. "Why are you so interested in my sexual life?" I asked.

"I'm your best friend, someone's gotta ask." She laughed. "No I didn't," I replied. "Why not? Don't you want to, I'm sure he'd rail the shit Ou-" I cut her off. "Yah! That's gross." I scolded. "All I'm saying is don't deny tension, and I'm not saying there is any but if there is, don't shut it out." She spoke.

After she left I couldn't help but think back to when he was drunk. He said he'd wait. I hope I wasn't disappointing him. Maybe u did slightly want it. But I found it confusing. I never ever had that feeling with anyone else. Maybe he was different.

It was now 11pm and I heard the door open. "Sweetheart I'm home!" He hollered. "You're freakishly on time." I chuckled getting up from the couch. "Well I knew you'd be up." He replied. He wrapped his arms around me hugging me, taking me by surprise. "I love you, you know." He whispered deeply in my ear. "I love you too." I replied. I get a kiss on my cheek then my lips. "Let's dance." He demanded. "But it's late-" he yanked me to the middle of the room.

He loved dancing, and to be honest I loved it too. But only with him. "I have a question." I said as we swayed to the soft music. "If you weren't forced to marry me, would you still marry me?" I asked looking down afraid to hear his answer. I felt his finger tilt my chin up. "Of course I would," He replied without hesitation. "I'd want to spend the rest of my life with you, forever." He whispered. He almost made me cry by his words. "I love you." I said.