happy new year
new
some sort of sick placebo
nothings really new
i guess they mean the numbers
but people hold this change up
as if it's significant
other than me erasing the old date i wrote accidentally
a new year
and i'm still in the same place i was last year
same slump
same person
i wish the new year wiped my slate clean
maybe i'd get over the hatred i feel
i'd move on and be stable
no more grudges
but i can't do that
the wounds still open when i see them
they bleed the same red
they never heal properly
fuck 2020
and while we're at it
fuck 2021
