Gangsta Love

I leave Tonight

I Leave for Tour In a Hour I told Niyah Have the Kids Dressed By the time i get there so it can be a Easy in and Out i Aint Wanna Do No talking With her and i still had too go get my brothers i walked Down Stairs waiting On My Manager Too get here i wasn't Really a Fan Of Riding with people unless it was my kids And My people

" Okay Jonathan we Gotta Come up with a Stage Name " She Told Me

" Don't call me Jonathan call Me Dababy The Handsomest chocolatest Nigga Alive " I said  Smiling

" And When You Get To LA You Have Two Photo shoots And Two Shows " She Told Me

We Stopped At My Mama House to pick up my brothers And I seen My sister Up

" where You Going ?" I asked

" With you " She Said

" No Babygirl You Got School " i told Her

" So because They Dropouts They Get special Privileges?" She Asked

" Watch it , I never Said that but u cant leave them Here thats A Burden Too mama And You know that " i said

" Yeah Whatever Take Yo dropout ass Brothers and Leave None Of you Never Finished School anyways You Think because you famous Now You Put Your Family on the Back burn ?" She Said Walking Away

I did Think it would Hurt my Sister like that I tried to stop her but She snatched Away from Me All My Mama Could Do was Watch Her

" you knew This Was The Moment she Wanted with you Jonathan and You hurt her like that I'm just saying Jonathan show her the Good Life The Life i couldn't Give her Or Her Daddy " my Mom Said

My mom Was Right But my Lil sister Is In School i couldn't Let her Rob herself of Her Education My Lil sister Was Like My Daughter Except Im not her Dad I told my Mom i would Talk to Her Later And Probably get her Flewed out Too My Next Show , I know Y'all Already Thinking Didn't You say you was the Only Child on your mom side ? i am The Only Child But even though my dad had other Kids My Mom still Has A Big Heart for Kids That's Not Hers , I got back in the Car and Closed My Door Next Stop was Niyah House i just knew i was about too fight with her

" Hey wassup ?" I asked

" Nothing can we Talk ?" She Asked

" Niyah I dont have time for this Shit " I said

" you never have time Jonathan unless its that bitch and her kids " she told me

"That's The Issue You make It About her i don't I haven't Seen nor have i talked too Braelyn Since She Left and My Kids Come Before anybody i got enough shit on my plate too deal with vs arguing with your childish stupid ass " i said

I turned my back on her and walked away i let my brother Buckle The Kids in so that we Can Get the airport on time to catch my Flight out every since i caught a lil fame its like now everything wanna crash i ain't make it full yet but everybody think I'm changing . I cant Change the Hood made Me and Im Gone still be apart of It when i make it , We Pulled up too the Airport and i got out Debo And Khaza Grabbed My Bags Those are my Guards I'm Guessing my Manager was Giving Me The Plays As I was Getting on my Plane .

" Daddy Im Hungry " Said Ja'leah

" Okay Baby Daddy Gone Feed You " I told Her

My Son was asleep i gotta get Ja'leah on a eating schedule my baby getting big and she only 3 i was flying first class my brothers was with me so i was good only thing i gotta get my lil sister too understand i wanted better for her . I got a Txt From Some number

850: hey I need A 3.5

Me: Who is This ?

850: Jackie

Me : Im not in town and ion do that Nomore

I stopped Txting Cause i was skeptical about the number idk who Jackie was and I wasn't trying to figure out i called brae but no Anwser then my phone ringed it was her

" Hey " i said

" Wassup ?" She Asked

" Nothing just called and wanted too check on you , you know the last time we talked it wasn't good " i told her

" yeah i know " she Said In a Low tone

" Im on my way to LA Me And The Gang i wanted Too see you Brae I .. I Miss You " i told her stumbling my words

" I Miss You Too And Yeah Yall Can Pull up i got room for everybody " she told me

I was Happy That me and Braelyn was back on good terms but i needed too tell her about her brother before its to late i called his phone and he picked up

" hey you busy ?" I asked

" No wassup ?" He asked

" Meet Me At The Inlet Airport " i said

" Everything good ?" He asked

" your sister in LA We Gotta Come Clean before she find out " i told him

" i will be there just let me know when you land " he said hanging up

Within two months ive been thru hell i thought this gangsta thug life would be fun but turns out gangsta need love too 💔 . This Not Meant for Everybody it was killing me that i hadn't come clean with Braelyn About a lot Of stuff My Phone Ringed It was Alicia One Of My Old Hoes I picked Up

" Hey Baby i see you made it big " she Said

" Yeah i Aint make It Yet but I'm getting there " i told her

" when ima Get a Trip out ?" She asked

" Man listen im not on none of that shit I gave up my hoe ways for A Woman I love " i told her

" LOVE ?! Jonathan you was Just With Me Two weeks Ago And Not to Mention Im Two months Pregnant i was Gone Wait to tell you in your Face " she told Me

" It ain't Mines I don't Care " i told her

" You ain't Got to child Support Will " She Told Me

The Called Ended Now I know Im in Waist deep Two months Ago i was Fucking off with my Old Bitch Alicia Around The Time Me And Braelyn Started Talking i Made Alotta Mistakes But i don't Know if she Gone Accept Them . Now I'm About too have The opps And Child Support on my back i only made it in the industry to get away from the violence but look like its only following me . I hope Braelyn can forgive me and Not Push me Away i got attached too her and her kids i just got fucked up ways i Hope She understand thugs Need Love To 🥺💔