𝐁𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐁𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬 // 𝐏𝐨𝐞𝐭𝐫𝐲

Are You Okay?

TW: feelings of dissociation/depersonalization, intrusive thoughts

It's as if that question tangibly shook my shoulders and aroused me from my stupor.
I was actually enjoying what I was learning that day in chemistry.
I was taking all the notes and listening to the lecture and thinking about the material; however, I wasn't really there.
I didn't feel real.
It was like I was living in third person, disconnected from my own mind and body.

It's a weird feeling.
You know you're yourself, but you feel numb and tingly and can't seem to get a grasp on the reality that slipped off your rubbery mind and fell flat on the floor.
You can't move you arms to pick it up.
So you sit there, unfocused and distracted, unpleasant thoughts swirling around your conscious about the past, present, and future.

Your chemistry teacher said you "seemed distant", which was a follow up from that gripping, searing question that stings your core because you know you have to lie.

"Are you okay?"