a sky full of stars

packing

i keep putting off writing to you. i feel stupid doing it. it's been a few months and i'm sorry. 

i started packing up some of your things. i'm thinking of moving too. being here just breaks me too much. 

i've kept a bunch of things though. like shirts and all of your favorite things. but i've packed a lot of it too. i don't know whether i should just keep it and put the box away somewhere, or give it to your family, or even donate it. i just don't know anymore. 

i feel so lost. like i'm not doing anything right. should i even be packing your things up? do i really need to move? i feel emotionless. 

i'm numb.