The night is young but it didn't stop the people on going at the bar, it is crowded with so many people, drunk,wild and free. Drinking nonstop, flirting here and flirting there. People are dancing in their own rythm.
"Keanna, come join us"
The girl behind smiled to the one who called her.
The place was magical. Light were everywhere. And boys too! I chuckled on my mind. It is fun to see people enjoying on wasting the very precious time. Maybe they don't have any responsibilities at home or they run away from their responsibilities at home. Well, I have no say in that. It is not my life anyway.
To see them enjoying made a not so wonderful feeling to my heart.
What a lovely and sad moment for me.
"Calynn, tawag ka nang mommy mo" as I heard my nanay calling me, I turned off my phone and followed her downstairs.
This is my reality. I'm not in some place where there are many people surrounding me. There's no many lights and boys. This place is a boring place for a girl like me.
So silent. A deafening silence.
I heard nothing but the sound of my heels ticking when it hits the marbled floor. The silence of this place is killing me. I want to go outside and party, just like what I saw on my phone a while ago. It looks really fun. But yeah! I'm stuck here in this awful place.
Big windows that is always close.
Doors that are gigantic enough for you to be afraid to open.
Chandeliers are the only thing that makes the mansion bright.
Butlers, bodyguards , maids are everywhere.
This is my home, this is where I belong.
I couldn't help but to remember the video clip of the bar where my classmates went sent me. They are having the best time of their life. Living it to the fullest with no one to stop them.I sighed and smiled a little to myself. Cheer up self.
While everyone is free, here I am caged in this big house and with the maids and bodyguards that I can't even befriend with. They always don't want to go near me, because if they do ,mommy will fire them without any guilt.
"Calynn dear, come eat with us"
I saw my mom with her friends as I walk through the pathway that leads to the garden. I readied myself as walk towards them. Need to be presentable in front of them or else. As I got closer to them I smiled and greeted them a good morning. I kissed my moms cheeks as soon as I get near to hear.
" I thought you're busy mommy?" I asked her
" Oh yes, but you know that I can't leave these madames here" she smiled to them
Kinuha ko ang tsaa na ibinigay ng maid sa akin, I thanked her and faced my mom again. I actually made a bad face on my mind when I saw the drink that is prepared to their table. Here we are again, drinking this.
Another bitter tea to drink. I said to myself.
Its been my dream to drink instant coffee, juice that are cheap that I always saw when our house maids drink. I wanna taste burger and fries to know if its really delicious. But I know it won't happen.
" Oh, good thing you have time to visit mommy. She's so busy to the point that she rarely see everyone here, glad that she's here outside." I joked to them
"Hahaha, My gosh Dayn your daughter is joking now."
"Well its true tita" I said as I sip my tea. Yuck
"You have raised a child that is very sophisticated as she gets older Dayn, very well"
As soon as I heard the woman said how my mother raised me I became immobile. Memories of how my mother raised me came flashing on my mind. Yep she really take great care of me to the point that me myself can't control what I can do. Mommy does all the work for me. She said that I need to be the best so that no one can be more than I am. I couldn't contain the bitterness and hurt that I feel so I excused my self to go back to my room.
After minutes of walking towards my room I am about to open it when someone dragged me harshly and brought me to my mother's room.
Yes, its no other than my mother who is so perfect. Note the sarcasm please.
Tears started to fall from my eyes as I walk fast through everything in this house.
Behind this sophisticated acts of mine, holds a deep wounded heart that creates on who I am right now.
