"𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑"
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'𝐼 𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑟𝑒𝑚𝑒𝑚𝑏𝑒𝑟, 𝑡𝒉𝑖𝑟𝑑 𝑜𝑓 𝐷𝑒𝑐𝑒𝑚𝑏𝑒𝑟
𝑀𝑒 𝑖𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑠𝑤𝑒𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑟, 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑖𝑡 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑏𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟,
𝑂𝑛 𝑚𝑒, 𝑡𝒉𝑎𝑛 𝑖𝑡 𝑑𝑖𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑜𝑛𝑙𝑦 𝑖𝑓 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑘𝑛𝑒𝑤,
𝐻𝑜𝑤 𝑚𝑢𝑐𝒉 𝐼 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑡𝑐𝒉 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑒𝑦𝑒𝑠, 𝑎𝑠 𝑠𝒉𝑒...'~
"Ang lamig!" I said to RK.
"Yan! Sando pa more!" He said to me.
We're here in the seashore, kasama ang ibang tropa namin, we planned to have a night swimming. Yipee! Pero gago, ang lamig talaga. Ba't ba kasi ako nag sando? Antanga ko din no?
"Eto oh!" I looked at RK when he handed me his sweater. Masayang kinuha ko ito at sinuot.
"Naks, bagay sayo ah?" Nakangiting wika nya.
"Syempre ako pa? Ang ganda ko kaya!"
"Bagay sayo, assuming ka nga lang."
"Grabe ka ah! Foul yun-" I stopped from talking when I saw him looking at the woman near in our direction. I saw twinkle in his eyes that I've never seen when he's talking to me.
~'𝑊𝑎𝑙𝑘𝑠 𝑏𝑦 𝑤𝒉𝑎𝑡 𝑎 𝑠𝑖𝑔𝒉𝑡 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑠𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑒𝑦𝑒𝑠,
𝐵𝑟𝑖𝑔𝒉𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑡𝒉𝑎𝑛 𝑎 𝑏𝑙𝑢𝑒 𝑠𝑘𝑦,
𝑆𝒉𝑒'𝑠 𝑔𝑜𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑚𝑒𝑠𝑚𝑒𝑟𝑖𝑧𝑒𝑑,
𝑊𝒉𝑖𝑙𝑒 𝐼 𝑑𝑖𝑒'~
I got hurt. It feels like a knife that stab in my heart.
Why? Did you love at first sight?
~𝑊𝒉𝑦 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑘𝑖𝑠𝑠 𝑚𝑒?
𝐼'𝑚 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑛 𝒉𝑎𝑙𝑓 𝑎𝑠 𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑦,
𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑔𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝒉𝑒𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑠𝑤𝑒𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑟,
𝐼𝑡'𝑠 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑝𝑜𝑙𝑦𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑟, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝒉𝑒𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟,
𝑊𝑖𝑠𝒉 𝐼 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝐻𝑒𝑎𝑡𝒉𝑒𝑟~
He stood up and looked at me.
"Wait here Clarisse" I was about to answer but he jog towards her.
Why? Why it's so damn hurt? I-i thought...you like me....but it's only my thought, yeah, my imagination.
~𝑊𝑎𝑡𝑐𝒉 𝑎𝑠 𝑠𝒉𝑒 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑠 𝑤𝑖𝑡𝒉,
𝐻𝑒𝑟 𝒉𝑜𝑙𝑑𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝒉𝑎𝑛𝑑,
𝑃𝑢𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑎𝑟𝑚 '𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑 𝒉𝑒𝑟 𝑠𝒉𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑𝑒𝑟,
𝑁𝑜𝑤 𝐼'𝑚 𝑔𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑐𝑜𝑙𝑑𝑒𝑟.~
Pauwi na kami, nagstay lang kami ng tatlong araw dito sa resort ng barkada namin, at sa nakaraang araw na yun, I always saw them talking, laughing. I remembered what he said last night,
"Clarisse! Shet! Hulog na ata ako!"
I smiled bitterly when I saw them, walking towards us, with his arm in her shoulder.
"Naks pre"
"Taena speed mo dude"
"Kyaaa, nakakakilig naman"
That's what I've heard from my friend.
~𝐵𝑢𝑡 𝒉𝑜𝑤 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝐼 𝒉𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝒉𝑒𝑟?
𝑆𝒉𝑒'𝑠 𝑠𝑢𝑐𝒉 𝑎𝑛 𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑒𝑙,
𝐵𝑢𝑡 𝑡𝒉𝑒𝑛 𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛, 𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑑𝑎,
𝑊𝑖𝑠𝒉 𝑠𝒉𝑒 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑑𝑒𝑎𝑑, 𝑎𝑠 𝑠𝒉𝑒.~
I smiled at them and talk.
"Sanaol, isipin niyo, si RK na demonyo, nakakuha ng isang anghel." Biro ko para matakpan ang sakit na nararamdaman ko.
"Tol, payag ka non?"-Drake, one of my friend.
RK just rolled her eyes at me. "Sus, wala kalang jowa." We just laughed at what he said.
~𝑊𝒉𝑦 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑘𝑖𝑠𝑠 𝑚𝑒?
𝐼'𝑚 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑛 𝒉𝑎𝑙𝑓 𝑎𝑠 𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑦,
𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑔𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝒉𝑒𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑠𝑤𝑒𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑟,
𝐼𝑡'𝑠 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑝𝑜𝑙𝑦𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑟, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝒉𝑒𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟,
𝑊𝑖𝑠𝒉 𝐼 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝐻𝑒𝑎𝑡𝒉𝑒𝑟,
𝑊𝑖𝑠𝒉 𝐼 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝐻𝑒𝑎𝑡𝒉𝑒𝑟,
𝑊𝑖𝑠𝒉 𝐼 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝐻𝑒𝑎𝑡𝒉𝑒𝑟~
How I wish I can go back the time and stop the vacation we planned so he will not saw her.
And I wish, I was her. Sana ako na lang ang mahal nya. But I know this kind of wish, will never ever granted.
~𝑊𝒉𝑦 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑘𝑖𝑠𝑠 𝑚𝑒?
𝐼'𝑚 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑛 𝒉𝑎𝑙𝑓 𝑎𝑠 𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑦,
𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑔𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝒉𝑒𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑠𝑤𝑒𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑟,
𝐼𝑡'𝑠 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑝𝑜𝑙𝑦𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑟, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝒉𝑒𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟,
𝑊𝑖𝑠𝒉 𝐼 𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝐻𝑒𝑎𝑡𝒉𝑒𝑟~
I miss you, RK, I hope, you can still give me your sweater, just like before.
But all I can do is to let you go. Because I know you only see me as your sister. But really, how I wish I was her.
Dedicated to: Jake
