TW! suicide, depression.
I want to the astronomy tower but this time it wasn't to meet my cousin Draco it was because I needed a brake, I cant explain it but I just couldn't handle things anymore, I took advantage of the fact that everyone were in the common room doing things.
I sat in the corner and just started crying I couldn't help it I really tried to stop but I couldn't, I stood up and walked back and forth to try to come down and think about happy things but the only thing I could think about was how bad thing are , l looked out the window with tears still falling down my face and studently everything went blank, my mind cleared and it was so peaceful above everything, and I thought to my self, maybe I could finely be peaceful, I went ford a little more and stood really close to edge the wind blew my hair and I felt chills down my spine and slowly let loose of my grip, will still looking down from the window with tears still falling down my face I started to move my leg ford, suddenly I felt a hand warping my waist and poling me, I fell beck to the ground "Leyla what are you doing? have you gone mad?!" said George, "George?" I said and looked up at him "I'm really sorry" I said will wiping my tears "no no I'm sorry, I shouldn't have yelled at you, are you okay?" he said and sat down beside me, "is it okay if I'll hug you?" he asked, I nodded and he placed his hand around me "what ware you doing?" he asked "I- I don't know" I said "are you okay?" he asked again I nodded will trying to hold back tears "no I mean are you okay? like acutely okay" my eyes started to fill with tears again "you know you can talk to me right?" George said as he looked at me "I know" "so tell me what happened" "fine I'll tall you" I said took a big breath "nothing happened, I suffer from depression" I said and looked at him "w- what?" George said in confusion "yeah, that's why my dads are protective over me and why I act distant sometime" "but, I don't understand you don't really look sad" he said " wall depression is more than just being sad, like do you remember the other day I was late for class? it was because I want to sleep super late that night because the only time that I don't have to fake a smile and being okay is at night when everyone's asleep and I'm alone" "oh wow, I didn't know" he said "well yeah I didn't tell anybody."
we set in silent for a few minutes, George turned my face to him, he held my head and looked at me "I know it's hard but please stay, I promise I'll try to make it better" I smiled and kissed him on the cheek but on the inside I could swear that my hart exploded that was the nicest thing anyone ever said to me.
we stayed at the astronomy tower for some time, we didn't say much but we didn't need to sometime we can just be next to etch other without speaking, suddenly we heard footsteps "who could it be at that time" George said "I don't know " I replied "Leyla?" we heard a voice say, I could recognize that voice everywhere and I immediately knew who it was "Malfoy?" said George with confusion and gut up "Weasley?" said Draco and came to us "Leyla are you okay?" he asked "yeah Malfoy she's okay" said George a bit aggressively "George I can talk for myself its okay" I said and gut up "and yes I'm fine" "what are you doing here? and with him?" Draco asked "what do you mean with him? I told you that we are dating" I replied " wow wow what do you mean you told him?" asked George, it became quite and George looked at me with anger, I said nothing and he started to walk away "wait George!" I said "I'm going back to the Gryffindor common room we will talk later" he said and walked away.
"Leyla I'm sorry, I didn't meant for that to happen" said Draco "that's okay, but can you pleas be more nice" I said, "you should go to him" he said, I nodded and want to the common room.
"hey George! what's your problem?" I said and entered to the common room "what's my problem?, what's your problem, why ware you talking to Malfoy?" he said "well his my cousin and I don't have any reason not to" "but he is such an asshole" said George " sure he can be a bit of a jerk sometimes but he hasn't done anything wrong, why dose it bather you so much if I talk to him?" "its not the fact that you talk to him the fact that you don't tell me anything anymore, I literally stopped you from taking your won life!" he shouted, "Leyla I-" he said right after he realized what he as just said "way to far George, you want to far" I said, I walked to the girls room and slammed the door, I looked at the door and let out a sight I turned around and sew the girls siting on their beds lookin at me "are you okay Leyla?" asked Ginny "Leyla if what George said is true you should really tell someone" said Hermione "I'm fine really, there no need to tell anybody anything, Id really like to sleep now so good night" I said and got in my bed.
the next day I woke up and all the classes have been canceld I didn't know why but I didn't gave it to much thought and just spent my time listening to music, reading and relaxing until lunch time. at lunch I sat at my regular place but didn't talk to George, it was the middle of the meal and professor McGonagall approached me and said "Mrs. lupin black will you pleas come with me to my office" I nodded and started walking with her, at that minute I could feel everyone lookin at me, wail I walked I turned my face to the Gryffindor table and sew Hermione and Ginny mouthing the word "sorry".
