I'm Sorry

I'm not unique

I'm completely unoriginal

I'm incomoplete

You know that more than anyone

I say I wanna quit

I need to move on

But that light, once unlit

Is hard to turn back on

See, once you go down a certain path

You'll never go back

You make your choice with that first slice

sign your name in your own blood

and I need you to know

I'm sorry that I can't escape this madness

I'm sorry I go to you whenever I break

I'm sorry I can't escape this blackness

I swear I'm trying

Please believe

I'm sorry

It starts with a hole

an insignificant blemish

the first mark upon a pure soul

But the taunts get louder

and the insults dig deeper

and the pain sends me spiraling out of control

their words are embeded in my mind

I can't escape them if I tried

I know the key to my own demise

my life is filling up with lies

and I need you to know

that the truth still exists

and that's why I show

you this

and I'm sorry I can't escape this madness

I'm sorry I go to you whenever I break

I'm sorry I can't escape this blackness

I swear I'm trying

You gotta believe it's true

I'm trying

to be a better me for...

Some nights I can't live in my own head

the memories are just too fresh

their letters and texts and messages all so clear in my mind

their truths mixed with lies are an unruly mesh

It's hard to control the urge

but I get through it

I'm getting better

at believing I can be fixed

but some nights I can't pull through

some nights I have to go to you

and I'm sorry

I'm sorry for all my madness

I'm sorry

that I can't escape the blackness

I'm sorry

that my mind can't be controlled

I'm sorry

You have to deal with this load

I'm sorry