Dukedepp

-part 9-

You pull back and see him blush and smile to himself we should leave I'm sure someone got this on camera oh yeah sure what you didn't know was that the paparazzi and a few fans recorded the whole thing, once you get home you go straight to your room and rethink what happened earlier until Cassidy came in woah your on TikTok room, the paparazzi posted pictures of you and duke kissing in the parking lot oh shit she laughs and leaves you shocked but also a bit scared of what his fans may think y/n I got you something me ? What is it ? Here he gives you (idk pick a color of roses like for example my fav are red and white) you hug him and once again you get flashbacks of when you dated and everything was "perfect" you pull away and look down what's wrong nothing you recognize those kisses and hugs didn't you, it's ok so did I. I missed them and I miss you I miss them too but but what nothing it's kinda hard to sleep with out you in my arms you can always stay here you hug him and kiss his cheek, he blushes, takes the roses from your hands and lays down with you I'm kinda tired go to bed I'm tired too he takes off his shirt and gives you his hoodie, you remember the smell of him and remember all the times he gave you his hoodie, a tear falls down your face but you hold back the rest. Once he's asleep you go to the bathroom and cry there but try to not wake anyone up, you felt terrible everything was bad and you couldn't even film. You tried to stop but more things came to your mind that made you cry more, unfortunately dukes hoodie sleeves had a few tear stains and so did the part where the strings come out. The doorknob shook meaning someone wanted to go inside y/n ? You stayed silent trying to fix yourself but nothing worked so you tried your best and responded y/n is it you ? Y-yeah your voice cracked at the end but you tried to hide it y/n are you crying let me in no I'm fine your voice was a little funny but you quickly wiped your tears and opened the door yes ? Why are you up so late and were you crying I couldn't sleep and no wasn't you take a deep breath and walk to the bed and hide under the blanket tell me what's wrong I need to know I'm fine duke you said into the pillow as tears soaked the pillow show me your face you hide your tears and look up tell me you can trust me I hate seeing you like this if I can't let you sleep it's fine I'll stay in the guest bedroom you say starting to get up but he pulls you back no don't it's fine you lock yourself in the bathroom and cry again while dukes outside asking to come in duke I'm fine I just need to use the bathroom no your not please it breaks my heart seeing you like this he manages to open the door and find you sitting on the toilet top crying into the sleeves of the hoodie duke stop I'm fine no your not what's bothering you you make yourself stop crying and give him a fake smile which unfortunately he doesn't fall for y/n what is it *he's so innocent and cute sometimes* let's just go back to bed you both cuddle and wait for him to fall asleep, this time you went to the back yard and sat on a swinging bench and cried there. You heard duke calling you so you stopped crying and made it seem like you were happy y/n please tell me what wrong I can't see you like this duke I just feel terrible *I wish I had made him happy, maybe he wouldn't have cheated if I made him happy* (btw don't do this for some crusty guy other than duke because he's cute and not crusty) y/n he says snapping his fingers in-front if you duke I just feel terrible today ok and I wish u made you happy maybe things would have been different if I made you happy I'm sorry for wasting your time in our relationship ok ? You go to the guest bedroom and stay there until he comes in y/n why would you say that you've always made me happy and always will I was just stupid that day and if anything I should be apologizing because it was my fault no it wasn't you don't deserve some 18 year old tiktoker who cry's all night you deserve better and I don't think I could make you happy that way ofc you could and have and you never wasted my time ok ? I love you so much wtf is going on remember what happened last time you had an argument it didn't end well when did you wake up since you've been crying I need to get you a therapist no no no please yes you need one no please I'm begging you don't fine just this one time but go to bed she leaves and you wipe a few tears that leave your eyes it's ok I wish I was dead I wouldn't feel any pain I would make this world a better place with out me and you would find someone better everyone would have a much better life no never I can't imagine a world with out you, yours my only source of happiness what about your family you are my family I don't see my mum or sibling often now that I'm in LA but you've made me so happy and if you left I'd cry until I can't anymore, the world loves you take a break from social media you need it you hug him tightly and cry in his chest I hate seeing you like this it breaks my heart I love you so much don't forget that now let's go to bed it's getting late he carries you to bed and you both fall sleep

That's all I felt like posting today since I was able to write this even tho it suck buf whatever also RIP Ricardo Gonzales Gutiérrez (cepillin) thank you for making our child hood happy (Latinos mostly)