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LXXXI: Sad Boi hours

toothless and khj.surdad
chat

toothless

how are you today sweet heart
want me to come over have fun ;)?

khj.surdad
I'm sad :(

toothless
why? what happened?

khj.surdad
idk,,, I'm just sad, no reason

I haven't got out of bed today

toothless
you didn't went to uni?

khj.surdad
nope

toothless
it's okay, you can rest of you are
sad today

khj.surdad
I will

toothless
wanna be alone? or want me to
be with you??

khj.surdad
I've been alone enough

come sleep with me

or chat or just be with each other

please

toothless
I'll be there in 15,

khj.surdad
the door is open

toothless
is Yunho with you?

khj.surdad
no he spent the night with Yeo and Mingi

toothless
ah true

then wait for me

we can talk about whatever you like

Seonghwa took his coat, for some reason this March started cold. With rain and wind for some days. He was a bout to get out but Wooyoung was fast to stop him in time.

"Wait where are you going?" He asked confused. It was almost midnight.

"I'm going to Hongjoong's, he's not feeling well,"

"But we had cooking night tonight," Wooyoung whined.

"I know but-" Seonghwa couldn't finish, Wooyoung interrupted him.

"Wait you said Hongjoong us not feeling well?"
Seonghwa nodded. "Yeosang has told me he is kind of concerned about him, he hasn't gone into little space for weeks. Not that is a bad thing, but Yeo is worried he might be overthinking things. Just wanted to tell you that,"

"Oh... Thanks Woo, you are the best,"

"I just want my friends to be happy," He smiled.

Seonghwa entered Hongjoong's dorm 15 minutes later, just how he said. It was one of his good qualities, he was always on time.
He opened the door carefully to a dark room. His windows were closed and no light entered the place. Hongjoong was under his thick blankets, only popping his head out of them when he heard Seonghwa enter.

"Hi Joongie," Seonghwa said with a sweet and caring tone. "How are you doing?" His voice was like honey and clouds. Like when your mom wakes you up slowly when you are sick.

"Mmmmh," the younger groaned covering himself up again. Seonghwa got to the bed and sat besides him. His hair was the only thing pocking out of the sheets, the older caressed his head. He looked at Hongjoong with sparkly eyes. How did he ends up this lucky? And why was the shine of his days surrounded by shadows? He didn't want Hongjoong to be sad.

But then he thought, as Hongjoong let him caress his cheeks, that being happy wasn't possible if you have never been sad. Being sad was normal, sometimes necessary. He had been sad himself, very very sad, so he knew what Hongjoong needed. Company.

He got inside the blankets and hugged his small boyfriend as the big spoon. Making sure to wrap him tightly in between his arms. He was warm and cozzy. Seonghwa smelled the back of his neck, it was his smell, that's how Hongjoong smelled. When you spend so much time with someone you learn their scents, and Hongjoong, for Seonghwa, smelled like vanilla and fruit shampoo.

"Seonghwa," Hongjoong whispered in the dark.

"Mhmm?"

"Thank you," It was almost inaudible, but Seonghwa heard it clearly. He kissed his nape.

"Thank you too," He's whispered back.

"Why would you thank me?"

"Because you deserve it,"

"I just cause you trouble," Hongjoong curled himself even more.

"You don't, I love being with you. And you are no trouble, you are the sweetest boy I know. I know that maybe you are not believing me right now, but I'll be your nice inner voice until you form your own." Seonghwa explained, kissing him one more time and tightening his grip.

He wished stay there all his like and to smell his boyfriend and kiss his skin. This was that first stage of love they all talk about. Pure love and infatuation. He could give his happiness to Hongjoong.

"Thank you," Hongjoong whispered one more time before falling asleep.

[A/N: Sorry for this sad chapter, but I wanted to say that if you feel like Hongjoong, you have to build a Seonghwa for yourself. Don't rely your happiness on others. Here, in this chapter, Hwa and Joong are two parts of myself.

The judge voice and sweet voice. I like to imagine what I'm going through is something a friend or a partner is going through and what would I say to them. How much they would mean to me and how little I would want them to feel like Hongjoong, alone and helpless.

At the beginning the sweet voice may seem fake and that you are lying to yourself, but little by little that sweet voice over powers your Judge and sad one.

You are worth it, you can do it. Even if all you do is get up of bed. We can do it together listening to Time Of Love, "Nobody is perfect" and Celebrate, "Congratulations for being born as you"

Ateez and I love you!! <3333]