They wake up no problem and pimp and preen
I face a battle that no ones seen
Because sometimes I can't bring myself to care
I act like the problems aren't even there
So what, I may smell and so what my rooms a mess
At least I'm alive and nothing less
Why am I not good enough?
Why am I not good enough?
I go to school and look around
They wear happiness like it's a crown
Well I'm not happy, I feel like I'll croak
I wear my sadness like a cloak
It weighs down my shoulders and my neck
Such a strong force demands respect
Why am I not good enough?
Why am I not good enough?
They don't have to watch their weight
They'll eat and eat and eat all day
Well when I'm depressed I put on pounds
When I get sad I don't get around
I lay in bed all day and cry
Faced with the endless question; "Why?"
Why am I not good enough?
Why am I not good enough?
It hurts to look people in the eyes
I have to wear a strong disguise
I don't know how y'all do it
When I look up I'm hit with bullets
They shoot from eye sockets that catch my eye
I think they know my life's a lie
Why am I not good enough?
Why am I not good enough?
They don't know how hard it is
They look down and throw huge fits
"Your laundry's not done, your rooms a disaster"
Maybe if I were okay I could clean faster
But no, I end up not feeling my arms
How am I supposed to clean without a beating heart?
Why am I not good enough?
Why am I not good enough?
Maybe they'll be satisfied when I'm dead
I'll no longer bring about dread
I won't damper down their crowns
They'll no longer have to look down
Maybe when I'm gone they'll see
How hard it is to live each day as me
I'll never be good enough.
I'll never be good enough.
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An Illumination of Mentality
PoetryA book full of poetry and prose that highlights the issues that teens deal with every day.
