the bitter sweet tune of ending me (jostonio oneshots)

melodies of great importance

It's a cold night where my only company is my violin. it's the kind of night where everyone in the manor (that gets along that is) will stay together by the fireplace. however, i have decided that people in the manor do not like me. i absolutely do not hold it against them, i understand that i am hard to enjoy pleasures with. but even though i know why they don't want to be with me, it's still stings.

i understand that i'm hard to be around but it would be nice for them to try, even though i don't deserve it. however there's one person that will listen to me...

joeseph

he is the only one who tries. i feel so many feelings for him. i know he'll never like me but it's ok. nobody  else cares either......

i mean, that's why i'm here is it not?

anyway, it's freezing. i'm cold. i don't have any extra blankets around so i guess i'll have to go out after all.
maybe i could freeze to dea-
i hear a knock.
'monsieur antonio!'

it's joesph. my heart flutters in my cold dead chest. i start to pull at my hair in nerv. if i ignore him maybe he'll go away i mean it's best for both of us.

'monsieur i know you are in there!'

great. well this is the end for me.

'i brought you blankets and tea!'

oh? well now i simply must let him in.
i open the door.
'hello signore joesph. thank you for bringing me these.'

'no problem! must be on my way it is du froid.' he doesn't know much english so he still forgets some words it's kind of c-
'au revoir!'
as soon as he came he left.
heh, alone again.

nobody
nobody
nobody
all alone
by myself just like it's always been.
oh well.