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and on the 12th day of christmas my true love gave

and on the 12th day of christmas my true love gave to me a suicide note in a fur tree

it was christmas eve she had left and still wasn't back so i went over to study the well decorated tree full of boubles and fairy lights until i noticed a little bit of paper with a red sparkly bow. I gently untied the bow and started to read the note "dear luckas, Sorry i haven't returned but there was no way to escape it.My dear luckas you see what i am about to do next wont kill me because i am already dead inside. I loved you and always will but you see you could never love me for who i truly was and still am.The only part of me that I believe is perfect is my heart because your in it.It truly is amazing how much long sleeves and a fake smile can hide but before I tie this up (no pun intended :) ) I must explain that my smile was never fake when I was with you xx
always love becky

A tear was slowly and silently dripping down my cheek.

A few moments later there was a knocks at the door "police! open up"
They explained how becky was involved and a suspect in the murder of her abusive stepfather and had illegally immigrated to this country after running away from home. He said the social work had been on the case for a year.

Later her body was discovered under a tree as seemingly some kind hearted person walking their dog had cut her down but by the time they called the ambulance and it was almost too late someone else had placed a rose on top of her lifeless body and I placed two dream catchers so she could dream in hospital.When the paramedics came they said it was almost 1 in 100 chance of her living.

3days i sat in that dreary hospital ward hoping praying for her pale face to show some sighns of life.At 7am the next day her hand twiched then her eyes slowley opened and she smiled.