When Fear leads to the Dark Side, what does Love lead to

Chapter 3

All I ever wanted was being with the one who I love the most. But now I am not even sure if there is someone who loves me too. Everyone i loved, betrayed me. Why? I don't even know. I thought I could trust them, I thought they trust me. But I guess I was just to dumb to realize how much love blinded me. And still I forgave them. How? I really have no idea.

But I guess if you love someone more than yourself, even more than life itself, is hard not to forgive. I gave him everything, everything I had. I placed my heart in his hand and he crushed it into tiny pieces. I gave my soul to him and he throw it away like trash. But somehow I still love him. Even after everything he is the only I will ever loev this much.

The only one I would give everything. The one I would cry for. The one I would fight for. The one I would smile for. The one I would laugh for. The one I would lie for. The one I would die for.
What can I say I am hopeless in love with him. He is and always be my everything.

Will I ever stop worrying over him? No. Will I ever stop loving him? No. Will I ever stop crying at the thought of him betraying me? No. Will I ever stop smiling when I think back when we were still happy? No. Will I ever forget him? No. Will I ever forget what he did to me? No.

But how I am supposed to look him in his eyes. Not just him, but into my dad's eyes or into my uncle's and Auntie's eyes. Of course i still love them but it still hurts. I feel like my heart burns every time I think of them. Why can't I just hate them. Why must I still love them after everything.

Sometimes I just want to go back in time and just be happy. God I think I  am going to cry right now. Why is he always in my head. All this memories. Our first I love you. Our first time together. Our first date. Our first kiss. Our first everything.

Flashback.....

I am in the temples garden. Like always. Uncle Mace sometimes jokes about how much I love the garden and asks me why I don't just marry it. Yeah I know how nice of him. Suddenly I heard someone call my name. When I turn around I see Obi Wan running towards me.

" Hey Ben." I said smiling. " Hey angel."
" Stop calling me angel." " Sure when you stop acting and looking like one." He replied with a sly smirk. I swear all he does is tease me. How do I cope with it. Easy I love him way to much, but I am sure he doesn't feel the same way.

" Okay Lia, I really need to tell you something important." " Okay then go on. I hope you know that you can tell me everything." " Don't worry Darling I already knew this, but this is something else."

" My beautiful, caring and fragile Angel.
I love you so much, you don't even know it. Sometimes I get scared showing it. It feels like when you come around me, my mouth locks tight, and the words I want to say are just stifled. My lips locks up because my love is so strong, and the words that I want to say, just can't be expressed. Sometimes I just want open up and tell you how I feel, but I guess I am just to scared."

"That night our paths crossed was as if a magnetic force joined us together. It seemed as if I forgot to wake up that morning and face true reality. As our eyes connected, it seemed too fresh and real to be a dream. The fire, the strength, the longing to be loved--words were not needed as the world closed in and our eyes connected our two souls together."