Tales of the frozen sorcerer

After the teams squabble

( skip to 2:40 during primae's dream sequence part where its random stuff)

Primae decides to go back to sleep so he can just dream away all of his problems so he curls into himself almost like a dog curls before it sleeps 

An hour passes in which Bodley traces a pattern on the ground in charcoal, chants the words of power, and lights the incense. A popping sound is heard, and an owl appears in the middle of the circle.

*In primae's mind*

Primae seems to enter a pitch black part of his mind and looks around, before the entire area seems to light up filled with memories both good and bad, laughing with Losman in the county jail, using shape water as a kid to put the fire out from the fireplace as a kid, his mother being burnt alive, the cold winters that he nearly died in , and then glimpses of something else almost too fast for the human eye to see, brown hair, green eyes, the orphanage, he doesn't understand it, what does it mean, why can't he remember, why, WHY, why, WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY, WHY CANT I REMEMBER THIS WHY CAN I NOT REMEMBER WHAT THEY MEAN, WHY ARE THEY HERE WHAT DO THEY MEAN WHERE IS HERE WHAT IS HERE EVERYTHING IS NOTHING... "no Primae dont lose yourself, just WAKE UP now dont go astray again" a feminine voice says to him

(Another A/N: Losman was Primae's favorite criminal friend in the county jail, Losman was also a bit of a thief also he stole larger things then just a couple pieces of bread or pickpocketing, he stole a magic grimoire a couple times and sold it on the black market

*Out of primae's mind*

Misrissa looks at her mama bird. "I wish we could be with each other always" the eagle shakes her head no and screeches a lesson. "What mama?" the eagle screeches the lesson again "So I shouldn't rely on you?" "But...I don't want to leave. I'm scared." Misrissa says hugging onto the eagle the eagle pats her on the hair and points at the whistle. "You will let me use it still mama? , Like....I got hurt. By the women I love....loved. I don't know if I can....it's all my fault. Like have you ever fallen in love mama. And then had your heart broken?" 

(A/N: the eagles lesson is about how it is important to leave the nest but that she will come if she hears the call, which is effectively saying don't baby people but do help them when they need it)

Primae mutters to himself in his sleep speaking in draconic for the first half before seamlessly switching to elvish "where are you, where am i, where is here" "why don't i remember much, why can't i remember much, what is it that i don't remember"  Bodley's robotic face twitches slightly on recognizing the languages, but the Warforged does not move from their apparently inert state, Misrissa goes to comfort Primae as she knows elvish but stops herself as the eagle shakes her head no "I know mama" She says as she goes back over to mama bird. Primae starts to mutter again this time in common just talking random nonsensical words almost like a code

The eagle looks at Zaza for help with Misrissa's romantic failure's in life to which Zaza shakes her head. "She is capable of learning her own value, and that I have little experience in personal romance myself." "i....i lost confidence in self value when i came here....i just feel like i dont matter. i just want friends" Misrissa admits. Primae finally wakes up from his nap "Misrissa you arent the only one with no self confidence in the world, i actually kinda had no confidence or will to live for around 2 years after my mother died, the easy way to get rid of your non-existant self confidence and instead be overflowing with a charm of it is to insult and berate people 24/7 so you can gain confidence, or just suddenly gain more power then just one basic cantrip although that last one would only apply to a sorcerer such as myself" Primae then starts to clean his dagger a bit then goes off on his own for a walk "see you bitches in an hour or so but i genuinely don't give a fuck how long it takes so just see ya when i see ya"