Starlight/ The Boyz 12th Member

it hurts, even if I deny it.

Yu-Mi walked into the practice room watching her members practice for Kingdom. She sighed softly watching them look incredibly tired, she leaned against the wall watching them through the mirror. The music stopped as she smiled back at them.
" Yu-Mi? Oh my god Yu-Mi!" Sunwoo yelled running twords her forcing her into a hug smiling.
" Oh my god your wet! Let me go!" She yelled trying to push Sunwoo off, the members laughed at Yu-Mi and Sunwoo actions as she broke free from his grip.
" Aww Yu-Mi~ you know you love me~" Sunwoo teased making her hit his head with her fist.
" Don't hug me when you're sweating babo." She mumbled cleaning her arm with a cloth napkin, Juyeon giggled at Yu-Mi's disgusted face as she put it away.
" Yah~ Moon Yu-Mi!" Sunwoo whined
" Yah Kim Sunwoo! You better shut up before I shut you up." She yelled

" Yu-Mi how are you?" Sangyeon asked
" I'm good! I've been feeling great. Uh I have a appointment next week with my doctor. " She said
" Why is something wrong?" Eric asked
" No! Just a daily check up, nothing that serious. Plus I'm doing fine." She said
" Good because I don't like it when you go to the hospital!" Juyeon said hugging her tightly around her waist nuzzling his face against her cheek, she giggled as their members gagged at their affection. For a second she felt like she was in her ex boyfriends arms, she quickly ignored the thought.
" You sound like Bomi-" She stopped mid sentence realizing what she was about to say, she pushed Juyeon away freaking out. The way he hugged her made her think of Bomin, she hugged herself slowly walking out the practice room leaving her members confused. Haknyeon followed after her seeing her  walk twords the small studios.
" Shut up..." She mumbled knowing he was following her, he sighed heavily walking after her. She opened the door to her studio almost shutting the door on Haknyeon's foot. She sat on the chair bring her legs close to her chest.
" What happened back there?" He asked
" Nothing...nothing happened." She said
" Something had to happen that made you push Juyeon Hyung like that." He said
" Because he felt like...he a-acted like for a moment h-he s-sounded like B-Bomin..." She mumbled
" Your still not over him?" He asked
" Would you be over your ex who has done nothing but been by your side? That after every surgery you'd wake and see them laying down next to you? Go to every check up with you,  promise to stay with you until your time is up." She growled

" I know Bomin ment a lot to you and I'm sure if I had that type of relationship I would feel the same way." He said
" Yeah he was one of the few people who didn't pity me as much. And who loved me for me." She said
" Who says we didn't love you." He said
" I didn't mean it like that, I know I'm loved but I said this to Juyeon before but I hate it when people try to understand me. I'm always getting pity on, if it's not my friends it's my own family. Especially my parents." She said
" Do you think we pity you?" He asked worriedly
She looked at Hakyeon a hint of fear in her eyes, he sighed softly wrapping his arms around her to comfort her.
" It hurts, even if I deny it..." She whispered hiding her face in her hands quietly sobbing as Hakyeon gently patted and caressed her head.