Short stories/Short poem/Personal Experience

Raindrops

I heard the rainfall outside my window while listening to our favorite song. I've felt you right beside me clinging to my arms. I asked you, why are you here? You didn't respond. You were in a complete silence, I don't mind at all.

Then suddenly I heard you humming.. la,la,la with the hymn. My heart beats fast like I was having a panic attack. Then this thoughts into my head. Do you want me to sing with you? No... I just enjoy every second you're with me.

As I close my eyes, the music stopped. Tears fell out of my eyes. I've opened my eyes... The rain is gone, the song was not actually playing, and you weren't here at all. I realized I was suffering that much. I've kept you here with me all along.

Everything's clear. I was never the problem, I was never wrong, and I was never the reason of you losing it all. I'm the one who lose myself, the one who degrade myself, and the one who killed myself. Cause there is no moving on, it should always be going through and pushing forward.