Grayson Dolan imagines

Insecure

Y/n POV

I recently posted a picture of me and Grayson at the beach in a swim suit and it was a little out of my comfort zone
I'm not a skinny girl, I'm not really average either
I don't really like my body, but I'm trying to be more positive towards myself like I am to others
It's really tough, sometimes it gets really exhausting, but I have a great boyfriend who helps me out with it
As I'm scrolling through the comments some of them are hyping me up. My friends are commenting and saying nice things, they know how hard it is for me especially when "I don't match the beauty standard", but they always assure me to know that I'm simply beautiful, and that beauty standard is bullshit
I keep scrolling through and see a lot of immature kids and people commenting things like

"Omg whale💀"
"Why the hell did he pick her again?"
"That's embarrassing luv😳"
"He literally had abs and her body is full of fat rolls and stretch marks"
"She's so ugly it's disgusting"
"Grayson baby you could do so much better than this fat bitch"
"She needs to stop eating so fucking much"

I know I need to stop scrolling through the comments but it's like my mind wants to feed off the negativity
It's so fucking Tiring trying to be a bright person for everyone when shit like this brings me down
I suddenly feel a tear fall down my cheek and I quickly wipe it.
I take a beep breathe and I shut my phone off
G- Y/n
I hear Grayson call
I lay my phone on the bed and the bedroom door opens I see him standing there with food
G- hey baby I brought some food
He says happily and it makes me smile.
He doesn't have to deal with people fat shaming him, I mean have you seen him
Everyone thinks he should be with someone that's not my size
I don't blame them for thinking that....
Grayson deserves the best.
The absolute best, and I'm not that.
Y- I'm not really hungry right now
His face stops
G- are you sure
Y- yeah I'll eat later don't worry about it
I force a smile on my face and he sets the bag of food down
G- I don't wanna eat without you though
He pouts and I feel a pain hit my chest at his hurt expression
Y- no Gray it's ok, I'm just gonna take a nap
I lay down and fall asleep
*2 hours later
I wake up and see Grayson scrolling in his phone sitting in his computer chair
I sit up and stretch and notice I'm a bit hungry
But I don't wanna eat.......
G- hey baby
He gives me a bright smile
Y- hi
I say In a sleepy tone
G- I'll go warm your food up I know you've gotta be hungry
He sets his phone down and picks up the bag of food standing up
Y- n-no Gray. I'll be fine. I'm not hungry
He turns to look at me and his eyebrows are slightly furrowed in confusion
G- y/n..... what's going on
He sets the bag down and walks to me
He sits beside me and brushes some hair off my face looking me dead in the eye
I legit could cry at the sight of his face
He's deeply concerned and hasn't said a word to me yet
G- baby.....
y- Grayson I-I..... The comments are so harsh
I mumble out as I begin to cry
He takes me into his chest and my body shakes with sobs as I cry
G- shhh baby it's ok let it out
He comforts me rubbing my back and placing gentle kisses on my head
G- I wish I could make it stop I really could
He mumbles as he holds me tighter
Y- Grayson I'm not good enough for you and it clearly shows
I say as I pull away from him
His face is sad and he looks almost..... scared
G- baby no! Don't say that, please?
He mumbles as he wipes tears off my cheeks
Y- b-but it's true
G- no it's not. Your worth so much more than what you give yourself credit for. Don't let their words tear you down like this. Your so strong, beautiful and your an amazing woman.
He presses a kiss to my forehead and I smile slightly
G- don't ever say that your not enough for me. Your more than I could ever ask for. You make me happy, your kind, your loving, your so positive and put everyone above yourself. Your the best baby, I love you for that
He looks into my eyes and I see the tears in his
Y- I'm sorry Gray
G- don't be sorry! People are cruel and you have feelings. I just don't get why people are so fucking harsh. Just please remember that your worth so much more y/n ok?
I nod my head at his words
G- please try and eat baby I can tell your not doing well but for me and for you
He says as a tear drops from his eye
He knows I've head eating disorder problems in the past so that's why he's so concerned
His hands hold tightly onto my hands
I feel so loved
He always makes me feel loved and cared for
Y- ok.... I'll try
I give him a small smile and he gives me a kiss on the lips
G- now I'm gonna warm the food up and we're gonna eat together ok?
Y- wait you didn't eat
G- nope I waited for you
He smiles and places another kiss to my forehead before getting up and grabbing the food
He walks out of the room to warm it up