when words are lost

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a few hours later

I'm laying in my room, on my bed when i get a wild hair. I jump off my bed and run downstairs, straight to the garage. I take a deep breath and step inside, memories flood the air as i look around. I go to her piano, our piano and pull off the cover. I run my hand over the top, god its been so long since i was in here. Since i played

Flashback

"i don't wanna lose you mom" i say sobbing in her shoulder. She kisses my head and holds me tighter.

"Your not. i'm a fighter baby" I nod against her. She pulls me back by my shoulders, then grabs my chin with one hand.

"Listen, i'm not leaving you. Okay?"

"okay Mama"

I kneel down and pull out one of the drawers from the coffee table. I pull out my old music book. I sit down and find an empty page. i start writing

Luke's POV:

"Dude i can't get her out of my head, like last night after i left her house. I missed her, all i wanted was to go back" I say jumping onto Bobby's countertop.

"You mean im gonna owe Alex $10 bucks?" He complains as he searches the box of chips. He pulls out a Doritos and tosses it to me.

"Whatever, im serious? im starting to think this is a bad idea dude"

"Your just now realizing this?" he ask, popping the top off his soda. i roll my eyes and slide off the counter.

"What if she finds out? She'll hate me and I wouldn't blame her"

"You need to find a way to tell her"

"How the hell do I do that?" I groan.

"I don't know but you better find out" he says

What the hell have I done?

Julie's POV:
I walk over and pull down my moms six string,
my song in my hand.
I'm actually gonna do this.

I sit down and start playing.

I don't even like you
Why'd you want to go and make me feel this way?
I don't understand what's happened
I keep saying things I never say

I can feel you watching
Even when you're nowhere to be seen
I can feel you touching
Even when you're far away from me

Tell me where you're hiding your voodoo doll 'cause I can't control myself
I don't wanna stay, wanna run away but I'm trapped under your spell.

And it hurts in my head and my heart and my chest
And I'm having trouble catching my breath
Ooh ooh

Won't you please stop loving me to death?

I don't even see my friends no more
'Cause I keep hanging out with you
I don't know how you kept me up all night
Or how I got this tattoo.

I can feel you watching
Even when you're nowhere to be seen
I can feel you touching
Even when you're far away from me

Tell me where you're hiding your voodoo doll 'cause I can't control myself
I don't wanna stay, wanna run away but I'm trapped under your spell

And it hurts in my head and my heart and my chest
And I'm having trouble catching my breath
Ooh ooh

Won't you please stop loving me to death?

Every time you're near me, suddenly my heart begins to race
Every time I leave, I don't know why my heart begins to break

Tell me where you're hiding your voodoo doll 'cause I can't control myself
I don't wanna stay, wanna run away but I'm trapped under your spell

And it hurts in my head and my heart and my chest
And I'm having trouble catching my breath
Ooh ooh

Won't you please stop loving me to death?
(The 5SOS is obviously dedicated to Anna, love you mom AnnaM_06 )
"Julie" Luke says making me look up.

"Luke" I say shoving my guitar away. I stand up.

"Jules, your- your amazing. You're so amazing" he says walking over to me. "I didn't know you could sing like that, or write like that"

"I-I didn't know I could either, I mean after everything" I stutter.

"Was that song about... me?" He ask.

Honestly, I don't know.

"I don't know"

"Julie, I need to tell you something"

"Yeah?" I say tilting my head.

Luke's POV:
You have to tell her Luke. She has to know, better yet she deserves to know.

"I umm I- Missed you"
Damnit

"Aww Luke" she smiles. She walks over to me and kisses me.

"You wanna do something? Get out of here?" She ask.

"What about Carlos?"

"My dads home"

"Then shouldn't you be with them Julie. Seriously, I can go"

"No no no, don't go" she says. She stands there for a moment, thinking "oh! I think there's a party going on a carries house"

"Don't y'all hate each other?" I ask. She nods.

"It's just a party Luke"

"Fine. Let's go Jules" I kiss her. She squeals and grabs her jacket. We jump in her car.

Someone how, I think this is a bad idea.

A/n: it's kinda a filler but you know. The next part will be way more eventful.

Also,mental check in. How are y'all? You feeling bad or good?
I've been better but I'm stressed and stuff I guess.

Y'all truly are amazing, I love you to infinity and beyond -R

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