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This couch is too stiff
Paging my head for excuses
On why I came here in the first place
Swallowing down sweet wine
I'm too pussy for it to hurt
I cried in your arms, felt your nails
Digging in my scars, tugging my hair to keep me there
Said I didn't want to go
Why did I go?
I'll lose myself in you if it means
One more day by your side
Can I be nothing but yours?
I'll lose my identity in you
Forget who I was
I not myself
I'll just merge into you
And we'll live in the same hivemind
I'll lose myself in you if it means
One more day by your side
Not a soul, not a force
Just a vessel to worship you in
Just a shell to serve
The plaster stars look awfully ugly tonight
Would they look more beautiful
If you were here looking at them too?
But this couch isn't your bed
And this house isn't my home
Not if you're not here with it
Could you be here with it?
I grew up here
Went to school here
Met my first love here
Cut my first scar here
Considered my first escape here
In my bathroom home alone
"Trust and love and hope"
But this house isn't my home.
Not if you're not here with it
Why did I leave you?
I hope you're miserable too
I hope you're fucking miserable too
Im tearing out my hair
Wishing it was you here
Would you fuck the sadness right out of me?
Would you merge yourself into me?
Can I lose myself in you like that?
Midnight hits and there's radio silence
Who was I to pretend I'd be fine?
When the days pass like hourglasses
Barely started before it's over
Are you sure we aren't over?
Flipping as pages in a book
When our mind is elsewhere
Only skimming the words
Alphabet soup
Where are you?
