Poems: of all types of ideas

Sadness

Bein in the darkness
Feelin hopeless
Like a zombie walk-in around brainless
Yikes I think I'm feelin sad again I have to retain this
the happiness I've gained
Life's a trip with no round trip ticket ones u fail you can't go back and fix it
Least that's how I feel
I might just squeeze the trigger so I can know if I'm real
Ive never felt like someone's seen me
Do I even exist or am I just a wanderin ghost lookin for a host to find a bigger better life
I'm going crazy what's all this in my mind
The more thoughts I get
The more rhymes I get
But what does it all matter if I feel dead
I wake up and I see red
Too many crickets
It's the silence
I just wanna stay in my room
Imma get a mask to not look at the world
lookin like motherfucken mf doom