always the second choice

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um so this is an interesting chapter...

Sage.

We packed all of our things before running downstairs. Draco left a note for his parents by the Christmas tree as we left the house. "Let's drive for a bit." Theo mumbled as we headed to the car.

"You are coming?" Draco asked as he unlocked the convertible.

"Yeah I fucking hate my parents, of course I am coming." Theo hopped in as the top was closed because of the snow. We all piled in as I sat in the back with blaise and Theo sat in the passengers with Draco.

We started driving with some music when my favorite song came on. It was a muggle song but I loved it since I was a kid. "Oh oh turn it up." I ordered to Theo who gripped the knob turning it all the way up.

I sang along with the lyrics "and for you I keep my legs apart, and forget about my tainted heart. And I will never ever be the first!" I sang putting a fake microphone as my hand putting it to blaise.

"I would do it, push a button, pull a trigger, climb a mountain. Jump off a cliff. Cause you know baby." He laughed as I put it to Theo who held my hand.

"I love you, love you a little bit, I would do it, I would say it. I would mean it and we could do it, it was you and I and I only!" Theodore sang and I pushed myself up putting it to Draco who focused on the long road but still sang.

"I think I am a little bit- okay that's it that's all I am singing." He said over the music as I groaned sitting back on the black on the leather seats. Blaise laughed pulling me to him as his arm rested on my shoulder. Draco still focused on the road threw up his middle finger to us both in the back as I giggled before he picked up speed.

We drove for a bit longer before Draco made it to a place where I guess we aparate? I don't know that's what he said "We will come back and get the car another day, they will keep it here for us." Draco assured as he slammed the door.

He held out hands as we aparated and landed in a long street. I sighed as it was foggy and cloudy. The trees were tall and dense as they went through the whole town.

I looked over seeing

The city of forks welcomes you.

"Come on we have to walk through the woods for a little." Draco mumbled as I laughed.

"Do you know where this is?" I laughed as we started stepping on leaves. The trees were insanely tall like bigger the The malfoys Christmas tree which I thought was big.

We walked a little ways before we heard running. Quick running. "The hell?" Blaise cursed.

"It's probably some stupid kids come on we are almost there." Draco mumbled as I nodded continuing to walk through the foggy forest.

There it is again.

"What the hell is that?" Theo whispered as blaise pushed me behind him. The running got closer, and closer. What the actual fuck.

"Shhh." Draco snapped as I felt a gust of wind blow through my hair as I hid behind blaise. They all stood in fear as I poked out.

"No-" blaise started but I was already out completely when I saw what I saw.

This has to be a dream. It can't be happening. This only happens in books? Right? Someone that you loved so dearly showing up right in front of your eyes after 4 years of you thinking they were dead. I loved him- I still love him. But now I am caught.

Caught between blaise.

And Cedric.

"Who are you guys? What are you doing here?" Cedric snapped. His soothing voice that used to put me to sleep as he read a book to me. His figure that towered over me in the corridors waiting for me to get out of potions. I was so close to him.

Three other people stood by him. A big guy, he was muscular and had sharp red eyes. A girl with short hair that had a terrifying look on her face with also red eyes. And last was a blonde. They all looked, scared. Their lips twitched as I stepped out.

"Cedric?" I gasped in disbelief walking closer.

"Sage.." someone said behind me as I looked back seeing blaise and the two other boys. My heart shattered. I was In between the men I have never loved more in my life.

"Don't, don't fucking do this to me." A tear ran down my face as I turned facing Cedric. I walked closer to him. His breath hitched as everyone watched us. I pulled him to me hugging him. His breathing was heavy as his grip was tight. But he pushed away.

"Why are you pushing me away?" I asked pulling away meeting his eyes.

"Because I don't know you." He mumbled as I was caught off guard.

"W- what?" I looked around seeing the blonde boy struggle to breath. His chest was puffing up and down as the girl with short hair ran him through the forest. "What's going on?"

"I don't know who you are and why you are hugging me." He breathed as a hot tear dripped down my face.

"Come on." The muscular guy said as he tapped Cedric signaling for them to leave.

"I have so many questions.." I sighed stepping back almost hitting Theo but I noticed and turned back around. "How- no you know what this is insane! I am dreaming- blaise pinch or slap me whatever you do when you are dreaming," I mumbled closing my eyes turning to blaise. "Blaise! Please.." I cried but he didn't move and when I looked back up.

Cedric stood there

"I am not understanding this." Draco scoffed.

"What- I thought you died?" Blaise shouted. I seriously have to be dreaming. No way Cedric is alive? I have been grieving him for the past 4 years and he just shows up perfectly fine?

"You look so familiar." Cedric said with a plain face as my lips quivered.

"Because-" I turned to blaise who looked heartbroken. He looked like he didn't know what to do or what to say. He just stood there, suffering. Watching me see a guy I have loved for forever fall back in love.

"This literally has to be a joke." Theo walked around as I stood. Glued to the forest floor.

"I don't know you yet you are so familiar." Cedric said again.

"Go." Someone said behind me as I turned to see blaise who had tears in his eyes.

"What-"

"Hogwarts." Cedric finally said but I didn't listen. I was paying attention to blaise.

"Go. Be. With. Him." Blaise spaced out.

"But my heart only beats for you, I can't lose you." My voice cracked.

"I'm always the second choice, it's okay sage. Be with him."

"No! You are going to be with me! It's not him it's you!" I shouted. I knew now who I loved. I knew and I have known ever since I walked into potions. I knew the second I connected with his eyes that we will be each other's person.

And in that moment our souls connected as one. Love.

"But sage.." Cedric said behind me as I turned seeing the other people gone. "We loved each other, I remember now."

"And I spent every god forsaking moment grieving! Loving you! I spent every day. Loving you still. And all for what!" Tears were pouring down my face "For you to be alive!? You are really fucking mistaken if am I am going to take you back." I snatched my bag up from the ground and running off.

I ran and ran. The branches snapping under my feet. Bushes moving from the wind. A storm was coming.

I made it far enough where I hid behind a tree burying my face in my knees as my sobs echoed through the air.