I looked in the mirror fixing my bini with des name on the front of it with a heart I got done
I had grey sweats a white tee n Air Forces
This is the first funeral the next one is tonight where people are gunna dress up
I got in the car with the boys n girls I've not been well it keeps replaying in my head the last words I said to her. I've been Drinking more n smoking more but nothing seems to numb me
We got to the place n everyone got out I locked the car
it was silent nobody said a word we walked into the venue n seen des family n a face I never thought I would see again...des mom she had tears coming down her face but des dad did not, he looked like he didn't give af there was no body so we could not see des for the last time...
(Ion even know how fucking funerals work so don't judge LMAOAOA)
We left the venue n I cryed- yup I cryed knowing I can't see her ever again
We got ready for the second one I had a suite n tie on with a black ny hat that had des name on the side with a evil eye next to it I got her jewelry I gave her n put it in my pocket I walked out my room n seen the girls dressed up
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^the dress they wore They had there hair straight n heels on
We got to the venue n there was hella cars we could not even find parking we end up parking on the side n walked to the big black doors they had to enter we walked in and there was everyone dressed up
i put my Diamond matching bracelet on n looked at the two diamonds that hung from it one of my tears slipped n someone whipped it I looked up n it was Tony my fist balled but out of respect I didn't hit his goofy ass "tf u doing here" I said pissed "can we take this outside" he said lowly I walked out with him to the side of the venue "tf u want" I said sternly "lower your tone I came here for des..." he said "after u fucked her." I said walking away but he said something that made me stop n turn around "we didn't sleep together" he said "she told me don't even start" I said walking away again but he said something again "she told me if Kobe asks if we slept together say yes but the next day she went missing n I don't know if that has something to do with her we never slept together she payed me 50k for me not to say anything but I can't hold it in" he said "what?" I said "u Hurd me" he said "leave me alone" I walked away confused af
They where playing videos of des most of them she was smiling she always smiled no matter what she was the glue to our group n now she's gone just like that... a video came on that cought my eye it was me n her fooling around in tell she said something into the camera that I did not hear in tell now 'Kobe's mean but man I plan on him having my child' she said before I hit her with a pillow everyone turned to me or tears where coming out there eyes there was another video of des about to shake her ass with cece n Tory but I tackled her she laughed n then when she got up she kissed me
I remember that day
After the venue there was food n des grandma was telling stories about des when she was little n how she always looked up to her dad but no tear even came out of his eyes no emotion on his face he didn't even care
