Summer is Ours

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Beach houses.

Salty breeze.

Pure sands.

Lazy afternoon.

Yes.

It's summer.

I'm his again.

But I know he'll never be mine.

Though that can change.

Maybe I can change it.

Maybe he can be mine, even if it's not summer.

We live at both opposites.

But once it's summer. It's our time.

Our time.

"Hello, babe, are you near already?" I asked, one summer afternoon. It's the first week of the hot season and it makes my nerves giddy at the thought of seeing him again. I only got few weeks to be with him physically, and the rest of the year, distance will cover the space between as again.

So I bear it in my mind. I only got weeks, maybe just a couple, but still weeks.

"Yes, yes, I'm driving, gotta drop the call. Wait for me" was his voice at the other end of the line.

The only voice I can never stop listening to.

I waited.

I waited like my life depends on it.

Few minutes passed, until it became hours.

Still, I waited.

Then I heard a car entering my driveway.

It's him.

He's finally here.

My love, my Fort.

How I love to call him that when happiness is but a dream for me.

I welcome him with hugs.

Until it turns into kisses.

Hot kisses.

From my lips down to my neck.

It was fiery. It was intense.

I gave it all because I was smitten in love.

But I know it's all lust.

For Fort.

For my partner. In bed.

And nothing more.

I woke up the next morning with the sun rays kissing my face gently.

It was our first morning this summer.

But he's not beside me.

"Yes, my vacation will be brief. I can't stay away for too long from you, can I?" Fort's voice said to someone on the phone.

I know who's that someone. And I know I can never be that someone.

"That's so sweet of you... 'Aight. I'll call back later. I miss you too... I love you."

That words.

I long to receive that words.

But it was always meant for someone, never for me.

Still.

I hug him from the back, the call ended. It's summer, I know he's not mine but at least his time is. And his body.

"Good morning" I murmured, feeling him inside my arms.

He loosened my hug and faced me instead.