Sapnap x Reader

Protector

TW: Intrusive thoughts/Idea of an eating disorder/Mentions of self harm/Sexual harassment/Mentions of past sexual assault and rape/Violence/Panic Attack/Blackout

Y/N's POV

I slowly start to wake up with a terrible pain in my neck. I fell asleep sitting up with my head back so that must be the reason why. I notice Nick and Dream were still asleep. I try to get up without waking either of them. Being successful, I walk to the bathroom to wake up. I turn the sink's cold water on and run my hands through it. 'Maybe if you were a good mother I wouldn't have to discipline your brat for you.' Good mother, huh? I am a good mother. Right? You're worthless. A terrible mother. She needs someone worth something. Why do you even try? People pity you. They don't care. Your own daughter doesn't even love you. Why would anyone else? Before I knew it, I was on the ground, against the wall sobbing quietly. There was a knock at the door.

"Lacuna? Are you in there?" It sounded like Dream.

"Yes, I am. I'll be out in a minute." I say trying to sound as calm and normal as possible. "I quickly stand up and rub my eyes, trying to keep myself from crying more. I took a couple of deep breaths and I was calming down. I turn the sink off and look at myself in the mirror. I look like shit. I'll just avoid his gaze when I walk out. I open the door and notice he's not there. Walking back to the living room, I pass the kitchen, which has Dream making breakfast.

"Good morning. I made toast and eggs if you want any." Dream offers.

"Thank you for the offer, but I'm not really that hungry." I answer looking away from him.

"That's fine. Can you wake Nick up? He'll eat them." He asks. I nod my head and walk over to him. "Robin and Trevor were fed. They went into Robin's room and are playing."

"Thank you." I say. I gently nudge Nick to wake him up. It did not work. Instead he grabbed my arm and pulled me down. I winced in pain as his hand made rough contact with the arm I had previously hurt. I think he felt it because he jolted up and hugged me. 

"I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. I didn't even realize I grabbed you." He said.

"You're fine." I smile. He pulled away and looked at me. Next thing I know, he has his left hand on the right side of my face, cupping my cheek.

"Are you okay?" He asks. "You look like you've been crying."

"I'm fine." I say. "I yawned not too long ago and my eyes watered, so that must be it." He didn't look like he believed me but he left it alone. "Dream made toast and eggs."

"Good. I'm starving." He laughs. "Let's go eat."

"I was actually going to get ready for the day. Check on the children." I reply.

"You're not going to eat?" He asks.

"I'm not hungry." I deadpan. 

"But you didn't eat anything yesterday and your brother said you didn't eat anything the day before that." He states. "Y/N you need to eat something. That's not healthy."

"I'm just not hungry. I have a small appetite." I answer becoming nervous. "I'm going to go get ready." I walk off before he could say anything else. I quickly turn around remembering all of my stuff was still in his car. "I'm going to get ready after I have my things to get ready with." He laughs as he walks out of the door with me. We bring all of mine and Robin's boxes in and set them in my room for now. He leaves, allowing me to do what I needed to. I take a quick shower, blow drying my hair when I get out. I finish getting dressed when I hear a knock at the door.