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TW: BLOOD AND SUICIDE
"I could've stopped her"
6 Months Ago
"Mom what's for dinner?!" I shout as I enter the house.
No response.
I walk into the kitchen and see Isla at the table doing her homework.
"Where's mom?" I ask and she shrugs.
"She's been in her room since I got home, I think she ditched work too they left a voicemail for her" I nod and walk down the hall towards moms room.
I knock on the door and she doesn't answer. I peak my head in and it's empty.
I fully open the door and walk towards the bathroom.
I again knock
"Hey mom I'm home" I yell over the sound of the fan.
No response.
I open the door and I turn pale.
She's just laying there in a pool of her own blood.
"Mom?" I choke from holding back my tears and quickly kneel next to her.
"Mom please" hot tears stream down my face as I lift her torso and check for a pulse.
"Mom wake up please" I whimper and hear footsteps.
"Bee, is everything ok?"
I can't let her see.
"Isla call 911" "Wait why Bee what's going-" "Isla damnit call 911!" I snap and I hear her foot steps run back to the kitchen.
"Mom if you're still awake please just please hold on for a few more minutes, please mom" I couldn't control my tears.
"Mom, I love you so much please wake up" I put my hand on her cheek and she's cold.
I brush her hair out of her face.
"I don't know if you can hear me but Isla and I love you so much. You are so important, you- you"
I couldn't do anything but cry. Words wouldn't come out.
I couldn't tell how much time had passed but I heard the faint sirens.
EMT's walked into my moms room and saw me holding her.
"Hey honey what's your name?" The women EMT who was standing to the side asked "Beatrice" my whole body trembles as I sob.
"Ok Beatrice, my name is Emily and we're here to help ok? Now we're going to have to put your mom on the stretcher then you'll ride to the hospital with us in the ambulance, ok?" I nod and hesitantly let go of my mom.
Emily helps me up and out of the bathroom "M-my sister" I look at Emily "What about your sister?" "She can't see my mom like that, I can't let her see mom like that" "She's already on her way to the hospital, some kid named John b took her"
I sigh in relief and nod but I'm still shaking.
Emily helps me walk outside and into the front yard.
Kiara and JJ are standing there waiting for me.
"Bee, oh my god" Kiara walks up to me and I finally am able to look at how much blood was on me.
It was all mom's.
"What's happened?" JJ asks resting a hand on my shoulder.
"She's dead" I mutter still looking at the blood on my clothes.
"What Bee?" "She's dead!" I yell looking directly at Kiara and she wraps me in a hug then JJ joins in.
I sob into Kie's shoulder and both of them hold me as tight as they can.
"Ms.Greer we're leaving for the hospital" and EMT "Come on man give her a fucking minute" JJ spits at the worker.
"I'm coming" I let go of Kiara and the pair joins me in the ambulance.
~~~~ She was pronounced dead as soon as she got into the ER.
The doctor said she had been dead for eight hours.
"If I would've just a waited to leave for school for just thirty more minutes, I could've stopped her" I tell my friends and my sister as we all sit in the back of John b's van.
"Hey hey hey, don't do that this isn't your fault this isn't Isla's fault, you had no way of knowing" John b tells me resting a comforting hand on my knee.
"Why did she do it?" Isla asks wiping the tears off her face.
"I don't know Isla"
Ok so I cried so many times while writing this and sorry that it's so short I just couldn't stop crying. Anyways next chapter will be waaaay less sad I promise. REMEMBER, you are loved and please stay safe!!!!!!!!
