Fuck You! - WooSan

Outro + Analysis

Hello everyone! Welcome to the outro chapter. If you are unaware, I make these sort of analysis chapters in all of my books so I could analyze and reflect on my own work, explain and evaluate specific motifs and themes present in the book, and give explanations and self-improvement on ideas that may have not been clear. Obviously, as usual, you are not obligated to read this at all if you are not into this kind of stuff, but you might want to stick around because there is a short thank you message and a little announcement-like thing at the end. Thank you!

Reflection

This book is far different from my others and part of that is because of a change in writing style along with a few other aspects.

Due to this book being the first in my new semester (the Finding Yourself: Self-Acceptance collection of works) it precedents my new writing style that focuses more on description and art, also containing a deeper contrast between humor and seriousness. (Or as Wattpad likes to call it, Literary Writing Style)

Distinct changes that stemmed from this are things like the fact that most of the sentences I write are far longer, and most character are referred to by their names or an adjectives or description that describes a characteristic of them (for example, Wooyoung being called, "the blonde" half of the time). I feel like this change helped me mature as a writer because it not only helped my foster my vocabulary usage and phrasing, but also caused my writing to in turn become more intriguing and artistic.

This book was also somewhat my first in using a trope that is extremely common in fanfiction, which is the concept of vampires. Although the idea may not be original, I tried to craft my version of them in a way that is unique but also familiar.

I chose the vampire concept for this specific idea (the idea being accepting change) presented in the Finding Yourself: Self-Acceptance collection because it easily shows the concept, but it also presents another, rather ironic, concept that can be presented in a simple question:

How much pressure and change can a person take before they lose their human nature?

Motifs

The reason why this book being partly based off of human nature is so ironic is because, well you could probably figure it out, the main character isn't human.

Wooyoung's whole character development is based off of how he tries to hold on to his humanity, though his actions (both controllable and uncontrollable) try to deprive him of it and force him into the nature of a vampire.

The difference between Wooyoung and the Goemul though is that, although they are both vampires, Wooyoung is not blinded by the idea of perfection or the vampiric nature of being higher than human. It was because of his human nature and ability to see it that allowed him to feel regret and pain. A person with a monster-like nature wouldn't feel this way and that's what the Goemul represent. A flawed person that is deprived of their own humanity. This is where the name Goemul comes from. Goemul (or 괴물 in Hangul) means "monster"

One instance that is extremely noticeable is Jibae's death. Jibae (or 지배) means "control" or "rule". Jibae represents just that, control. In the beginning, Jibae being alive represents that Wooyoung does have his urges and actions under his own control. But as the story progresses, he starts to lose that control and that leads up to Jibae's death. It's metaphorical. The moment when Jibae dies is also when Wooyoung seems to lose control over his own actions.

The main concept presented in this book though, as mentioned before, is accepting change. Sometimes big changes happen in your life that can change your whole life in a way that you never expect (In Wooyoung's case, he gets killed and gets turned into a bloodthirsty monster). Part of life is the fact that it never stays the same. As humans, change is something that we dislike and fear because it is something that is unknown, and nobody knows what it is. We have to learn to accept big changes and not let it halt ourselves, embracing the change and adapting to such things allows your life to keep going, while trying to stay in the state before causes you to not be able to go on with life. Being stuck in the past is the worst, and while it is human nature to want to stay in it, we have to learn to quantify how much restriction and non-acceptance is too much. Life is short, mulling in the past ruins the experience.